Zarathustra -> RE: Female/female power exchange? (8/31/2004 12:19:19 PM)
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Maybe i *should* share a bit of what my experience has been...I met my Mistress when i was 14 and we became very good friends (without benifits, she had some moral dilema about sleeping with miners) She was in the lifestyle as a "sub" but basicly was confused as to what a sub really was, See she loved pain but if you were to tell her what to do she'd turn around and throw something at you. I was reading a lot about BDSM at the time and very kindly explained this to her, anyway...From the begining of our relationship she has been VERY Dominate over me, it's hard to explain exactly *how* but for those of you with much life experience im sure you can understand, anyway she just called me her "side kick" for a very long time, i suposse my cuteness and flirting finally got to her and we started having sex. BLAH BLAH BLAH....Feel (rather hard) in love with each other, fought it for a long time, gave in, had leagal trouble made it through and grew stronger. So once all this happened i started really talking about my submissive desires ( a little background, i KNEW from the first time i met her i wanted to serve THIS Lady to the best of my ability) She was a little taken aback by it all (she mainly was into S/M) But said she wasn't Dominate and nothing could work there, but it was fine if i wanted to talk about it...Long story short we were messing around one night and she tied me up, had her way, beat me a little, untied me and told me exactly how to please her, afterwards i talked to her about it and why she got off on that the way she did, imagine this, Control *LOL* anyway i didnt want to say much (convincing someone they are anything seems sorta wrong to me, espeacilly a Domme) She thought about it and started to see how i have always been submissive to her and she really was dominate, She started to act more on her tendencies, go to local meetings, train me a very little at a time, and after a while (rather long) she collared me, i lived as her slave for about 6 months but it got to the point where i was doing it little justice and after we talked a gave it back to her out of respect and have been her submissive ever since...Ok i know i ramble a ton and its hard to really explain this situation since its so complicated but theres an attempt, anyone needing me to clearify anything just let me know... Zarathustra (My timeline stays screwed up but im pretty sure this is all correct lo)
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