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Here is an account of an on-line encounter i had with a Male Dom a number of years ago. Any comments would be greatly appreciated. Thanks.
AN ON-LINE D/S ENCOUNTER (Male/male)
Part 1
This encounter took place perhaps seven or so years ago, when i was a member of America On-Line. At this time i was working at a medical clinic in Santa Barbara, working the evening shift. i was growing very bored with my job and i suppose looking for some excitement to spice up my life, which had become very routine and hum-drum and consisted mostly of work and watching TV.
As I recall, one day i read in the local newspaper a book review discussing a novel in which the main female character became involved as an on-line slave or submissive to another woman, with her life slowly being controlled and taken over by the other woman, how on some levels she wanted to stop but emotionally and sexually she needed the other woman in her life, and eventually could not function without her as she controlled every aspect of her life.
Previously i had read Story of O and the Beauty series of novels and had indulged in many fantasies of being dominated by both men and women and being used for their pleasure, so this idea fascinated me, the idea of having my life completely controlled by a strong personality who would be like a mentor or parent but also i would be used by them for their sexual pleasure and be trained to obey them and serve them in any way they saw fit.
At this point the internet was still relatively new and i had been a member of America On-Line only a brief period and mainly just used it to read news reports and stories about baseball (one of my hobbies) and the like; i had not looked at the sex sites. But now i began searching out the different forums on America On-Line, and then the Relationship forums, and finally the BDSM related forums. These forums were basically personal ads, divided up into all different kinds of categories, such as "Male Dominant Seeks Female submissive," Female Dominant seeks female submissive," "Mistress seeks male submissives," etc. I was drawn to the section which i believe was called "Submissive males seek Masters." For a number of days i read through the ads, wondering if i should place one, just for fun, to see what would happen. Finally i mustered up courage and wrote out an ad. i cannot recall exactly what i wrote -- but it was very brief, just a few sentences, giving my age, height and weight, that i was a hispanic male and was looking for an on-line Master, etc.
i checked my e-mail every day but there were no responses to my ad, and so i had nearly forgotten about it. But then i believe on the third or fourth day the "You've got mail!" message turned red, so i clicked on it and i had one message. i did not recognize the sender's name (it was simply a series of letters followed by a number), but the subject line certainly grabbed my attention: it simply read "Kneel boy." i remember sitting looking at those words for perhaps a minute, not knowing whether to click on the message to open it or not. Before i opened the message i looked up the writer's screen profile in the AOL Directory but he had only filled in two of the fields, namely Sex: Male, and Location: Oakland.
Finally i clicked on the message and opened it. It said, "Before you read the remainder of this e-mail i want you to remove all of your clothing and kneel down in front of the computer screen. Naked and on your knees is where you belong, boy, and whenever you read one of my e-mails you will follow this same procedure. When you have done so, scroll down the page and read the remainder of the message." i only hesitated for a few seconds, then stood up and began removing my clothing; it seemed as if i was in a dream or under some hypnotic suggestion as i did so, and i was very excited as well. When i was naked i took a pillow from my bed, placed it on the floor in front of the monitor, kneeled down on it, and then scrolled to the bottom of the e-mail. The writer said that he would consider becoming my Master, but first i must perform a few tasks for him. My first task would be to write him a short biography of myself and tell him especially what it was that drew me to this lifestyle. He said that when I typed out the message to him i was to be naked and on my knees as well.
Without hesitation i wrote out a brief biographical introduction and typed it naked and on my knees as he had ordered me to. After i had sent it off i remember staying on my knees, repeating that phrase "naked and on your knees is where you belong" over and over, and masturbated to a powerful orgasm while i imagined that the man was standing over me, saying it to me as i kneeled naked before him.
The next day i received another e-mail from him. He said, "Well, you did a good job on your biography, boy, and that pleases me. Now I want you to return to the forum where you placed your ad, and post a new message there. You are to announce to everyone that you do not require any further responses to your ad, as you have found a Master. Then copy the message out and paste it into an e-mail, and send it to me." So i did so. And i also told him about how i had imagined him standing over me when i was on my knees and how it made me so excited that i made myself come.
In his next message he gave me two further orders. Namely, that from now on, when i had to pee, i was to sit down on the toilet to do it rather than do it standing up. Also that i could play with myself all i wanted to, but that i was not allowed to bring myself to orgasm, and if i did so i was to write him an e-mail and tell him so. At first i did not understand why he wanted me to pee sitting on the toilet, but after a few times i realized it was to make me feel more like a girl and feminine, and this appealed very much to me, especially as i did it more and more it seemed more natural.
His order in his next e-mail was to go to the store and purchase a dipilatory cream, like Nair. Then i was to use it to remove all the hair from my arm pits, torso and legs, and to e-mail him when i had done so. i did, and afterwards the feeling was very sensuous. i am naturally fairly smooth on my chest and legs but when i felt the new smoothness under my arms it was very arousing and i became hard doing it and wanted very much to play with myself but was afraid i wouldn't be able to stop from going all the way. So i controlled myself, or rather it was the Dom controlling me as he had given me the order about not having an orgasm. i wanted very much to do so but i didn't want to disobey. But over the next few days i would find myself stroking under my arms and feeling the smoothness but i only did it for short periods of time as i did not want to get too excited and lose control.
The next message from the Dom was that he was going to change my name. That from now on he would not refer to me as "john" but by a new name. But that he would allow me to choose whatever name i wanted, and to think about it and let him know what name i had choosen. i thought about this for a day and couldn't think of any name that i wanted, but finally i decided on "little one," and wrote to the Dom and told him my choice.
The following day i received another order. Namely, to go back to the supermarket, look in the pet section there, find where they sold the dog collars, and pick out one that i liked and purchase it. Then i was to bring it home, stand in front of a mirror, remove all my clothing, and while looking in the mirror i was to place the collar around my neck and look at myself for a number of minutes in the collar, and then write to him and tell him my feelings.
i remember when i was in the store looking at all the collars hanging there i became very aroused at the site. i had never really noticed the collars before this. i handled all the different ones, stroked them and felt their weight. There were light thin ones for small dogs, and very heavy and thick ones for large dogs. The collar i decided to purchase was silver, with links, perhaps overall 18 inches long, and was meant for a medium-sized dog. It had a clasp in the back to attach it around the dog's neck, and a small round ring which hung down on the links, where a leash could be attached.
After i brought it home i left it on the table for a time but then could't wait any longer and finally decided to try it on. I had a full length mirror attached to my bathroom door. So i took the collar, stood in front of the mirror, and removed all my clothes. i was going to place it around my neck standing up, but at the last minute i kneeled down and placed it on my neck while on my knees. i had never had a collar around my neck before, and i still remember that as i clapsed it in place a tremor passed through my body and i could feel myself becoming hard instantly. i looked at myself in the mirror for perhaps a minute or so, kneeling and with the collar around my neck, and started to shake. Eventually it became too much, and i stood up and took the collar off and put it in a drawer. Then i wrote to the Dom that i had carried out his orders and how i had felt with the collar on and looking at myself.
The Dom wrote back and congratulated me on what i had done, and said that now he wished to have an on-line chat with me and when was the best time to do that. As at that time i worked the evening shift, i told him in the morning would be best, so he said the next morning at 7 a.m. to log on to America On-Line, go to the chat room area, and that he would create a private room for us, which would be called "little one." And that he would be there awaiting my arrival...
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Part 2
My chat with the on-line Dom occurred at 7 o'clock in the morning and lasted perhaps an hour to an hour and a half. i first stripped and got on my knees as usual per his orders, then logged onto AOL, went to the chat room area, located the private room entitled "little one," and entered it. My Dom was already there waiting. He asked me how i was feeling, and i said nervous. He asked me if i was naked and on my knees, and i said that i was. He then asked me what I expected was going to happen, and i said i was not sure but that i thought he would give me commands to do certain things which i would need to carry out. But instead of giving me commands he just talked to me. He congratulated me on completing my tasks. He asked me if i had always remembered to sit down when i peed and to tell him the truth. i admitted that i had forgotten only once just before i took a shower a few days before, and he said he was pleased. He asked me what i thought about when i did this. i said that it reminded me that he was controlling me. He said, "It should remind you that you are in service. Is that right, son?" and i answered, "Yes Sir."
He asked me if i had any questions. i asked him if he had always been a Master. He said that he had started as a submissive but had been a master for many years now. He said that a couple visited him regularly who craved verbal abuse and humiliation, which he meted out to them.
He also talked a lot about the mind and psychology, and at one point i asked him about this and he said, "But what is SM if not psychology?"
At some point he described a little bit of what was going to happen next between us. Of this part of the chat i mostly recall different phrases that he used so i will try to quote them as best as i remember them:
One of them was: "This will be a process wherein I am going to slowly tear you down, and then build you back up -- in my image."
Another one: "I do want to bind you, yes -- but with my words, not rope."
Another: "Understand that I do not enjoy inflicting punishment, although you will be punished if necessary. But it will be constructive punishment." When i asked him what this meant he said, "That means that you will be punished, but with the goal of making you a better person."
Another: "I want you always to walk tall in the world, but to stay humble at my feet."
Some time during the chat i told him that my knees were starting to hurt from kneeling, and he said: "Stop whining! Accept this little bit of pain and know you do so because I require it of you."
i remember at one point i mentioned how much i was sexually aroused by BDSM activities that I had read about in books and seen on videos. And he said:
---"That is pornography, and just pretending and acting and is never satisfying. It is like drugs --- you keep needing more and more to get off. But it is clear to me you need a real master, boy. Not a fantasy one. Isn't that right?"
---Yes Sir.
Now i was getting a little nervous and unsure about exactly what I was getting into, and also a little afraid because of how he had the ability to get me to agree with him on most subjects even though initially i thought i disagreed. Like when i told him i would like things to stay on-line only between us. And he said: "Well, you are now following my orders and doing things off-line as well, so you see this is a process whereby we begin on-line and then eventually move to off-line. Isn't that right, boy?"
---"Yes Sir, i see that it is."
i now understood that he was gaining a very strong influence over me. It was very arousing but very scary as well, as i was afraid of where it was leading.
Finally he asked me a long series of questions regarding whether i was serious about going into service with him, or whether i just wanted to indulge in fantasies to get off. i don't recall exactly what the questions were specifically, but i remember i answered "yes" to all of them. Finally he asked me:
---"Now lastly, boy, I want to ask you this: Are you now ready to serve me completely, or do you need more time to think about it?"
Then i felt like i was on the edge of a precipice and teetering on the brink of it, not knowing which way to go. So there was a long pause. But then i answered him,
---"i believe i would like to think about it some more, Sir."
Then there was another long pause, and finally he said, "I don't understand you boy."
Pause.
---"Because you show great promise in this lifestyle and don't throw it all away now at the last minute by chickening out. It just means that you will have to start your search all over again for a new Master. And you have wasted my time. But more importantly, you have wasted your own time, as you have wasted so much time in your life. Isn't that right boy?"
---"Yes Sir, it is."
---"I realize why you hesitate, but I can also promise you that if you give into your fantasies you will find great joy and fulfillment...So think about it, son. Will you do that for me?"
Him calling me "son" moved me very much. And i said, "Yes Sir, i definitely will Sir, thank you so much."
Then there was a very long pause, and i waited, and at first thought the chat was over. Then he said:
---"You're a cocksucker, do you know that? You deserve whatever you get and I hope you enjoy it."
And i was shocked when he said this, and hurt, and said:
---"i am sorry if i disappointed you Sir."
---"I'd like to go over there right now, take my belt off and use it to beat you into submission. Is that what you need boy?"
Pause.
---"i don't know Sir."
---"You need to be owned, and I am going to own you."
---"You would own me, Sir?"
__That's right, I will own you. I will have my name tattooed on your ass so that everyone who sees it will know that you are just a piece of property -- MY property. And I will give you to my two Domme friends, to use as they see fit. They will tie you up, flog you and give you good hard dildo fucking, just like you deserve. Then I will fuck them and make you eat their pussies."
And i was very aroused at this, and considered this was just fantasy, and said:
---"Oh, i like pussy Sir."
--You ARE pussy, boy! MY pussy. And I would love to fuck you while you eat pussy..."
This went on for a while longer, the Dom telling me what he would do to make me submit to him, and as it went on i became very hard and told the Dom that I was. And when i said this he stopped immediately and said it was time for him to leave. i asked him please not to stop and to continue but he refused. Then he said:
---"I see that I have allowed you to manipulate me into indulging in your little fantasy but I promise you that will not happen again. If that is what you require, look elsewhere. That is not what this is about."
---"Yes Sir."
There was another pause, and then he said:
---"It is obvious to me, boy, that you are not yet ready for my kind of subservience. I will say again -- you need a real Master, not a fantasy one...Let me know within two days if you change your mind...And know that if you do, the next time we are on-line together we will --- I repeat --- do things MY WAY."
Then i very quickly typed "Yes Sir i understand" but he had already signed off.
At that point i signed off as well, kind of in a daze and disoriented and not knowing what to do. But i knew instinctively that it was over and i would not write back to the Dom.
i felt that i now was not under orders anymore about orgasm, so i played with myself and had an orgasm, but afterwards felt more depressed and sad and on the verge of tears. i did not want to write back to the Dom but also knew that meant going back to my usual life of drudgery and without the excitement of waiting for the next order from the Dom to obey and wondering throughout the day what the order might be. The rest of that day is a blur until the late afternoon, when i needed to prepare to go to work, as i worked the evening shift at the medical center and went into work at 4 pm.
It was worse at work with all the people around, and it took all the strength i could muster to keep myself from crying at my desk, and once i had to leave the office and go out onto a staircase to compose myself or i would have broken down. And it was the same the next day as well.
Then on the third day it was better and i was more composed and was feeling more myself again. At that point i felt kind of ashamed at what had happened. So i went onto my computer and deleted all the files relating to the encounter -- the copy of the ad i had posted, all the e-mails from the Dom, all of my e-mails to him, and the log of our on-line chat. i threw away the bottle of dipilatory cream i had purchased as well. And i was going to throw away the collar also, but then decided to keep it but put it away in the bottom of a drawer so i wouldn't be reminded about what had happened.
So that was the end of my on-line D/s encounter. i did not write back to the Dom and i never heard from him again. It is very strange, all these years later, to look back on it and realize that although i never did learn his name, his age, his race, or anything other than what i have related, for those ten days he was in control of me both psychologically and sexually, and it was probably the most exciting and exhilarating ten days of my life.
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