MasterHelios
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Nam took the love out of U/us. Most of U/us became close in a non sexual way to close buddies, and when they died part of Us died wit them. So when many of U/us came home it was hard as hell to get close to anyone. I lost My first wife because I had become a controller not truly understanding the BDSM lifestyle. I had a Sgt that was a controller,and I admired, and followed in His steps later to find out He was a Master. I became harsh, uncaring afraid to get truly close. In 88 I found a Mistress who taught Me to care, and how to treat a slave by making Me submit, then how to know pain levels, disciplines, etc. She blessed Me with jade My first r/t slave before I met My wife. I too had a horrendous experience with a slave from Tampa. she tried to Top from the bottom claiming at the end she was afraid to give up her control, and trust. she faked space once to try to minipulate Me but I pulled a good one on her by putting ice between her labia,and she jumped up. I shut her down real fast. she hurt several others too never learning the true meaning of being a slave. Now there is a difference some can't fathom between subbie, and slave. For most subbies it is getting a kick out of the lifestyle within limits. Yet many love it,and go whole hog holding back just enough to keep them from being true slave. slaves give all consentually. their very lives, control, and open themselves to all forms of manipulation, bdsm emphasis on SSC, but still willing to ride the rail of anticipation, and a bit of terror in not knowing as some Masters love the thrill of unleashing on slaves unknown pain, mixed with pleasure. The idea of the Masters playing with your emotional pain of the child abuse is truly sadistic. I am so sorry for those like that had such sadistic controllers emotional, and physical as parents then later fell into it again. One thing I wish this community could do is concentrate on stopping child abuse in all forms. If need be hold seminars to those doing it hoping to prevent another child from going through what W/we did. Yes it screws Y/your mind into the ground, and with such low esteem, and no self pride how can one do anyting but submit under the psychological hell called sadism once they find out what out what we have become. I had to learn all over again what BDSm truly was. This is why I ask for education in here,and other sites to help newbees to know the difference. TO know how to talk to someone for weeks if need be. Set parameters, limits, safe words before talking contract, or play, and to make certain both understand SSC. Colloring is a beautiful thing but if a Master is untrained how can They know how to be a real Master. I hate wannabbees, and newbees that go to parties, claim a sub, injure them out of ignorance seeing O/others play. I hate the many liars that hang on the fringe that read a little, and get online to rp, act like they know it all, and mess up minds with their non sensical whim playing as if it is a game. M/my new friends it is a serious, deeply passionate communion of two S/souls joining as O/one as near a marriage as can be touched in both the mind, and the body. Does not mean sex is always between Master(ress), and slave. In My case intercourse is out, but fondling oral is ok to get her off. So now just remember when one tries to do this to you in such a nasty abusive way reject them ask questions, and make certain from the beginning it is SSC. I want to hear pro, and negative, and also from any subbies, or slaves that want to learn, and eventually go for r/t to live with wife, and I. If you have a little girl that is fine not going to set that limit. MH If you have to force it it's not yours to take. If they give freely then it is much better to enjoy.
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