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jewelzsecrect -> There I sat. (11/8/2010 10:27:22 AM)
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So there I was sitting at my computer in a BDSM chat room. I remember the moment when I sat back in my chair and breathed this huge sigh of relief. "I'm not the only one".
I found this room that was for talking about BDSM. I sat there just reading. I remember a Master who "took" his slave in there to punish her. Told her what to do over his mic. It drove me wild! So everyday for about two weeks. When I got home from school I would just sit there and read. I would get messages "hey you want to play". I Never replied. I was still kind lost as to why I was this way. I wondered if all of these ppl where Just as messed up as I thought I was. I still hadn't lost my virginity yet let alone what these ppl were doing!
My dad being a single father (worked alot) and mother who was not around at all. I had a lot of time to myself. I did silly things like run thurgh the woods naked. I guess you could say I grew up very free.
I lived in a very rural area. The main socialization was mainly at school the not very serous boy friend and the kids you pretend to be friends with. I was quite. All ways thinking never really speaking. All ways bringing home the notes from teacher "she needs to be more involved" Although my grades where good. I was considered the good kid on the right path. So they thought.
Do you want to read more? Feedback is welcomed and appreciated. The more I see people are reading. The more energy will be put into wighting!
Thank you very much for reading. J
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