deborah123
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this story, (written a year ago when I was a little more innocent!!) is based on an omage of things I had experianced, and some I would like to.. but I didn't just want to make it a simple fuck fantasy, as thats not my style... I like real intrigue... so I thought of some things that would freak me out too. it is very long, and I make no apologies for that... I write deep stuff. not just quick porn... but please, If you know me, I dont want this to happen..!
feel free to give me any feedback, good or bad, as I am new to kink writing....
a day away (to myself).
i am on a train..... reading the paper, well, i'm not really reading it, i am pretending, i cannot concentrate on the words. i feel self conscious. I feel everyone knows what i am doing, the ticket collector gives me a cheeky smile. I nervously smile back...
why do I feel out of place??
I have done something, or actually about to. I am having a day away into myself.
It all started last month. a lady contacted me on i/c.. she said she knew what i really needed, and was prepared to offer it to me. but there would be conditions. I talked it thorugh with my other half. he said it sounded great. but he wanted to meet her first. she instead wanted to talk to him. she said it was to make sure he was 100% okay with it. i had to give her his number.
I dont know how many times they spoke. he just told me he did not need to see her now, and he was happy with me going. I thought of a date. i tried to fit things around in my dairy.
then he pointed to a day. the day before my birthday. he said they both thought it would be nice to see me with a smile on my face on my birthday for a change.
i had spoken to her a couple of times. she was nice, but business like. she had read my profile and interests, and said it fitted her needs well. she seemed to know me, but not know me.
so I made the final call. i was going to drive up one evening, but she said no, i was to come up by train, in the morning. we would be having lunch out first. to get to know each other. in the back of my mind, i realised that was better, as I could go home the same day if I did not like her. she said dont worry about anything special, just bring myself.
going by train was annoying. I could not carry much. just a few basic bits on my bag. i did not even have room for my pyjamas...... all i could fit in was a few smellies, a nightie, my favorite purple one, with a big orange and green floral design. and a spare pair of knickers. at the bottom in a bag was my spare toothbrush. my other half dropped me off to the station, and he kissed me goodbye, and told me to enjoy myself.
I did not want to be presumptuous, and turn up at the station with an overnight bag. it annoyed me, a car would have meant I could bring stuff with me, and leave them in there. i was already out of my control zone. I watched people on the train, and wondered about thier lives.
soon it was time. this was my stop. a busy city. little souls get lost in places like this. I knew roughly what she looked like. but i wondered what she would be wearing. I had only seen pictures of her in her racier stuff. I suddenly felt sick. all my confidance fell away, and I felt like a lost kid. for a moment, I chickened, I leant up against a wall, and thought..... I remembered the conditions...... then I thought... in my life i've been hunted, and shot at.....dont be so silly... this is nothing.... I moved of, with a stride, and walked out to the waiting room.
She hit me straight off. as soon as I cleared the doorway, she was coming at me. at two feet we stopped, and she looked me up and down, tilted her head, and said 'hi' she was wearing jeans, and a simple white blouse. she looked like an american ranch lady.
We stood there. I said hi back, we didnt peck on the cheek, or hug, she just started asking me about my journey. I followed her out, and we got in the first cab on the rank... now.....'always know where you are' was a rule drummed into me from long ago. I was planning to buy an a to z at the station, but I had forgot. as we went down streets, I was now totally lost. it was 12.25 we made small talk, then she looked at me dead in the eye. "your quite nervous aren't you"
The pub was lovely. they knew her. it made me feel odd. she chose the seat looking at the door, the one I would normally pick. a bottle of white wine was bought to out table. she asked me to pour two glasses out.
we chatted, but she seemed a little distant most times, but every now and again, she would pick up on something, and look me in the eye, and smile. I chose a salad. I really wanted the pie, but i remembered what rich food can do to me. the wine flowed, and I was feeling more relaxed, she told me she could tell. we seemed to chat forever. then she called for the bill, and said she needed to do some shopping. I stubbornly insisted on paying. i dont know why. she thanked me.
It still bugged me, I did not know where I was. the streets were now narrow. the old town maybe? wherever that was. a few art galleries, and some funky shops, she would go on, check on a few things, and leave., I just followed her, she was like a greyhound, and i was struggling to keep up. I followed her into yet another shop.... but It took me a second to realise where I was. the outside was plain.
the inside was full of stuff. It was a sex shop. I just stopped dead. I was really embarassed. She turned around and smiled at me. "and how are you today my dear" said the camp guy behind the counter to her. "yes, just fine" she answered "I just need something for tonight" I was still standing, looking at all the stuff, I must have been beetroot red. she was already in one corner, beckoning me over.
the corner made me blush even more. it was the dildo corner. she was picking them up and bending them like an expert. "so, which one takes your fancy" i did not know how to answer. she had a massive smile on her face, and gave a little chuckle, as she looked across the the man at the counter. Instantly. I froze. my confidance dropped. I felt so awkward. I wanted to cry. I stared into space.
"go on, dont be afraid, feel this one" My hand reached out, and touched the dildo, it was very soft, her hand touched mine, and her eyes met mine. "is that nice" she asked with a gentle tone. I nodded, and just stared into her eyes. "so go, on, which one of these do you like the look of?" she was pionting to some strap on dildos. not the massive ones, but the medium ones. she smailed again "he told me you cant have any of those" was her comment, pointing to the massive ones.
with very few words, I chose one, it was one she liked as well, she told me about how some were too hard, and could hurt. our favorite was flesh coloured, and about eight inches long. not too wide, but just wide enough, going to the counter I was totally silent. my every hair was on end. the man was very friendly, and they were chatting, she paid for it, I was too embarrased to even move. he gave me a smile and i smiled back.
I had never enjoyed city air as much. It was lovely. I was so glad to be out of there. she turned around, and waited for me. we walked beside each other.... my arms were crossed tightly around my chest as we walked. she grabbed my arm, pulled it free, and found my hand. "god, you really found that hard did'nt you, your so tense" I wanted to cry, that kind of thing was hard for me, i was not used to it..... her hand felt nice. I just nodded, and walked on, trying to keep my eyes dry.
"it was so sweet doing that for you........that is our toy now, for just you and me" she caringly told me. I thanked her, and I lightened up a bit. soon we crossed the road, and our hands parted.
we popped into a corner shop, and got some bits, we chose some more wine, and s few nibbles for later, I was feeling more at ease now. on we walked, we walked forever. eventually we were in a row of sweet town houses. the third one in was hers, each one had its own little garage, and a narrow staircase upstairs. the place was right up my street, lovely wood everywhere. the kitchen and living room were on one level, and she gestured me into the living room. I sat down, I was now enjoying her company, but I still felt tense, and awkward. I realised I had already crossed a point without even thinking. she had said days before that once I came past her front door, I was choosing to be hers.
a glass of wine was put into my hand, and she popped off for a minute. when she came back we chatted for a while. I complimented her on her lovely place, and asked if she waxed the wood herself, she politely answered, and kept smiling. Then she put her glass down. "your bath is ready" I did not know what to say. I mumbled, and she just told me to not be silly.
I had got up at 5am to have a bath, to be really fresh. it was now 5.15pm I followed her upstairs, the bathroom and bedroom were on this level, there was still lovely sunlight coming through the windows. she gave me a dressing gown, a lovely fluffy red one, and showed me the bath. she had lit some candles, which in the sunlight, looked so romantic.
"i'll leave you alone, take your time. those bits on the side are for you if you need them"
It was so nice. she left me alone. I laid there.....for the first time in five hours, I could think. was I mad? what am I doing? could I talk myself out if I wanted to.... I shaved my legs with the razor she left, again. just in case, i now felt really self conscious. I dryed myself off. her towels were red too. and really nice. my wine was now empty. I felt a tiny bit tipsy, but only a tiny bit. I put my hair in a towel, and neatly folded my clothes, they were the only ones I had bought.
"hello......hello" i called...... standing on the landing....and she came down from yet another floor. "ahh, did you enjoy that" she asked, I nodded, and thanked her. "come on, in here" she led me to the bedroom. the whole room was really sweet, not the kind of thing I expected. there was a lovely wooden chair by a dressing table.
"sit down" was all she said. I did as she asked. she pulled up another chair, sat down, and looked at me. just looked me up and down. I smiled a bit. it was now funny. she smiled back. "good to see your relaxed finally" she commented, she was right, i was. she went to her drawer. I was a bit worried. what would come out of it. A hairdrier, and a brush. she told me to relax, as she wanted to get me ready. she knew hair. but it was a little frustrating having it blow dried for me, I am used to doing it my way, instead she did it how she wanted. I started jabbering on to her about how I liked my hair as is.
"so what did you bring in your bag?" she asked. still intently brushing my hair..... that made me feel a bit uneasy again.
I felt silly, all i had bought was a nighty. it was hardly kink wear. I felt inadequate. I felt unsexy. "not a lot, just some overnight stuff" i answered.
"hmm, wait here" she went out, and came back with my bag...."may i have a look please, I love rummaging..." she pulled out my purse, six bankbooks for my business, my phone, my toothbrush, toiletries. and my knickers. she held them up "oooh, yummy" and joked.
as she took the stuff out she laid it on her bed, like it was some kit inspection. finally she pulled my nightie out. "oh wow, I bet that looks lovely on you!" she seemed really interested. "go, on, show me how you look in it" I took my dressing gown off carefully, for the first time in ages, I was naked in front of another woman. it felt scary, but comfortable too. i slipped it on for her. she asked me to give her a twirl.
"that really suits you, you look great in it" I sat back down again, and she finished my hair. she talked about how it is not about the clothes, its about the person. she tried my perfume, and gave me a squirt. she stopped and looked at me approvingly. she closed her eyes, breathed in deep, and smelt my perfume. and opened them. she seemed different now, her eyes were a little watery.
"are you ready now" she asked. her voice was so tender, it made me feel a little emotional. I closed my eyes and nodded, i could not talk. "hold your hands out" I held them out. for the first time, I allowed someone to take control. the cuffs were really comfortable. she carefully did the straps up. That was it, I was now under her control..... "how does that feel" she asked. "odd........." i tried to re-phase it "unusual, but nice." as i opened my eyes, she was putting the other strap on my ankles. my breathing was changing, and got deeper. I felt a bit scared. she picked my stuff off the bed, and put it all back in my bag carefully.
"now you know I am going to hurt you.....how do you feel about that?" I quietly told her I knew that, and started jabbering again. "now... its time you shut up for a while" I duly did as i was told. she went to her drawer, and pulled something else out. I was trying to work out what it was. she walked behind me, and pulled it around my mouth. I took me by surprise. there was a plastic bar that went into my mouth.... I struggled a little, as I was not ready for it. "come on, open up, dont be ungrateful... I bought this just for you the other day" she did it up. I tried to talk, but could not. slowly she walked around me "i've been waiting for this.....I cant wait.....but I dont know what to do with you first....."
I sat there. I felt a strange feeling. I was turned on.
not being able to talk was strange. i was trying to still, it was so difficult, and annoying, I had a little hair in my mouth, and wanted it out, but she just sat there and watched me........she had a lovely, cheeky smile.... hers eyes were almost lit up at seeing me like this. "how does thats feel love" she asked. I tried again to asnswer. my vain attempts made her smile even more. "come on, we've got work to do" she held her hand out, grabbed me and pulled me up. standing was odd, i was a little imbalanced, the ankle cuffs allowed just a bit of movement, but barely enough to move. slowly she led me out of the room, it took ages, and all of the time she had her eyes on me.
the hallway floorboards were tricky, I almost came a cropper on them, I kept trying to talk, it was like a natural instint. we got to a curtain. and she opened it. stairs, very narrow ones.
"now, turn round, and sit on the first step, go on." I did as she said, and came down with a bump to my rump. slowly, she made me climb them, backwards, one bump at a time. her eyes never left me, "go on, you wont slip, iv'e got you" half way up she stopped me..... she had such an approving look. that felt nice. I wanted to make a joke, but couldnt. I realised the best skill I had was useless.
the top floor was well lit. it was one large room, as I got to my feet again, I had a look. "EYES FRONT!" she yelled. i did not have time to really look, her hand grabbed my face, and pulled it round. i had seen a bed, and a stool, and some other stuff. I looked ahead, there was a wooden thing, not a cross, but an upright beam. I wondered if it was an actual part of the house.
she pushed me toward it, and I nearly fell. "i'll catch you" she whispered. i faced it, so tried to turn around. "no, no, eyes front" she ordered. I stood there, touching the beam... it was made of old wood, and had some woodworm.
"hands up please" i did as she asked. she put a little hook on my cuffs, and suddenly my arms were pulled up. it was a pulley. very clever of her i thought. my feet were luckily still on the floor.
"on your toes" .........shit, i knew what was coming, as I went on my toes, she took up the slack. this was now a little uncomfortable.........then I realised....I no longer felt turned on, I felt a bit put out. I wanted to turn around and show her my dissaproval, but now I was stuck. I felt her hands on my waist. she was putting something around me, she came around the front of me, and pulled it around me and the post. It was a strong leather belt. soon there were more, one under my bottom, one on my knees, and one on my ankles.
I tried to wriggle, but nothing would move. this was it. the first time I was completely trapped. it made the cuffs seem like childs play. the straps were supporting my weight a little, so I let my toes go. I was hanging. a lovely feeling. i felt free.
"good isnt it....." she was somewhere, but i could not see her, all I could see was the beam. "now lets see that bum" she pulled up my nightie, and tucked it into one of the straps, well, thats what it felt like. I felt the fresh air over it, and felt really embarrased. "now..... i know, I think you need a blindfold to see into"
I tried to protest, but could not talk nor move, I was annoyed, as I had told her I like some contact with someone. she slipped it on, and tied the back. as she did, i tried to move my head away, but only had a bit of movement "now this how i like you... all mine....." her voice was a bit gravelly. she was maybe aroused. I could not see, or move much. "so, what did you think this would be like my little bitch...." I could not answer, but her little insult made me feel hot. I was enjoying myself now. I was scared, but that was nice.
CRACK! something hit my bottom. I was not prepared for it, and it shocked me. CRACK again, it really fucking stung my mind was CRACK reeling, I tried to call, CRACK my eyes were watering now. I begged a muffled beg to stop CRACK. CRACK, it was now constant, the pain was unbearable. I tried to concentrate as the blows found me.
finally it stopped, it may have only been a few times, but I could not remember. I felt a hand tough my bum, it stung as it passed over the places I had been hit. "now I have your attention.... you are here for my pleasure little bitch.....did you enjoy that?"
I shook my head. this was not my idea of fun, it was bloody stinging. "oh, god, you are such a wimp.... thats was you first taste........ok..... remember, if you are good, I will be gentle, but I you do not do as I ask, I will surprise you like that.........understand?" I nodded.
"now, much as I'd like to torture you all evening.... I have some jobs to finish...." in a second I heard her go down the stairs. I was on my own now. this was interesting. was this part of the game.... i wondered about how easy it would be to get out of this. david blaine would know... I tried to unhook my wrists, but they were firmly attached. I was totally trapped. the straps would not slip down the beam, something was holding them on the other side.
I relaxed. or tried to. I was getting tired. my toes left the floor again, and I started thinking about my journey into bdsm. this was it. my first time. and I was alone. that made me feel weepy. I thought about what my other half was doing right now. I thought about lots of things. I then realised it was nice just only thinking. it all seemed clearer. after a long time, it felt nice just thinking of nothing. i felt sleepy.
I dont know how long I napped for, but I awoke to a smell i knew well, garlic...it was comforting, but I was now in pain. my back was uncomfortable. I tried to focus it out, a technique I had learned years ago. "having fun there"
she was behind me.... i had not heard her come up the stairs.... had she done it when I was asleep? how long had she been there for... what was the time. now I thought of time, it did seem darker for some reason. "so, did you think this would be your first task... being here for two hours..." her voice was knowing. that worried me. "now, now its time I really teach you some manners" I heard something move, maybe a chair, or something. she must be now wearing heels, as I hear them as she walked up to me.
"if you come to my house, you take your shoes off at the door. you also should stand there, while I decide if you should take any clothes off as well. not just walk in like your some honoured guest." she sounded like she meant it. the garlic................... it was making me feel hungry. her hand brushed my bottom.... "hmm, nice marks...., now lets have some more fun" she went around me, and loosened the strap supporting my middle. I felt a bit more free, but oddly more exposed too. no sooner had I felt this, then her hand was wriggling between my thighs....
"lets see how wet you are" she was quite rough. she found the entrance of my vagina, and felt around it with her fingers. I was a bit unnerved, but it was nice too. she forced two of them in, and suddenly I felt on top of the world. I had never felt that responsive to someone. it was like all my communication with her was though her fingers and my vagina.
she suddenly pulled them out "you dont get very wet, do you"... i felt ashamed. "maybe something else might" I was wondering what. I knew what I was hoping for, in fact, I just wanted her fingers back in there. I missed them.
I felt an object push in from behind. it was sliding, and wet. the tip found my vagina, and pushed in a little. it was some kind of dildo. it was lubricated. that reassured me. I felt really hot, and pushed my bum out to meet it. t went in more. I tried to groan, but I couldnt. I tried to move up and down on it, but I couldnt, i was getting frustrated.
"nice... do you want more" her voice was so intense.... I nooded keenly. it went right in, and my body lit up. no pain, I just felt so turned on.she pushed in in and out, and I loved every stroke.
then she pulled it out. I waited for it to go back in. my bottom was writhing now. "ahh, is my little bitch missing something...." I nodded. I preyed for her to continue...
"no, no, you only get nice things when I think you deserve them...." she was now gently rubbing my bottom, teasing me. "what about something you dont like..." the dildo returned, but this time I instantly froze.
it was up against my bum. a place that scared me. all my feelings of being turned on dissapeared in a second. "what if I just pushed this in here.... would you like that honey" my head was already shaking..... I was now really fearful.....
"I bet if I push this hard into your bum you would secretly love it, wouldnt you...." she sounded really intense. "yes....you would little bitch. but even if you didnt, no one would hear you scream.... would they" she started to put pressure on it, my bum hurt a tiny bit. i suddenly realised being at her disposal was not a clever idea. "come on, nod to me, tell me you'd love it....... many people do... come on, or I might just do it anyway....to teach you some manners." I was loosing control, I felt upset... it reminded me from a bad tme from childhood... I felt the tears run down my face. this was way too much. "maybe I dont give a fuck about you.... maybe I might just do it...... would you tell you man would you..... or would you keep it a secret...." I was pushing myself as high up as I could, to avoid it. I was no longer tearful. I was crying, I tried and tried to talk, but all I made was a muffled whimper. it sounded pathetic. in the end I just broke down.....
"ohhh, have I upset you...." she pulled it away. I felt a wave of relief.... it was like floating on a cloud..... her voice was now sypathetic.. and kind. "this is your fist time, so I'd better be nice, eh.......dont ever think I wont now honey......do you understand dear............" I nodded. she started undoing the straps. I felt limp, and exhausted.
the blindfold come off. i was hanging there still, i took the opportunity to move my limbs a bit.. i had my first chance to see her for ages. she looked great. she was not really dressed up, she just looked classy in her black silk robe and heels.
she turned me around and looked at me....... she gently wiped the tears from my face... "well done honey" was all she had to say. i did not understand that....what had i done well?, she unhooked my arms, and moved me slowly to the bed. the room was full of stuff, i didnt know what most of it was..... I wondered how long it took her to find all ths stuff... I wanted to ask her, but couldnt talk.
"now lets have you laying face down...." as she pushed me onto the bed..... for a few seconds... my eyes caught hers, and I tried to talk to her, i wanted to tell her i needed to go to the loo. all that came out was muffled moans... "whats that dear...I cant understand you...." she smiled broadly.... "do you want me to take that off for you" I nodded.... and felt relieved..
"no..... sorry, maybe later......maybe never eh..." she was chuckling.....her eyes looked full of joy. mine must have looked full of frustration. she pushed me onto my tummy, I now knew about not getting my way.
"right hun.... I want to give you a good punishing....." she grabbed my hands, and tied them to the top of the bed. "dont want you wriggling about now, do we." my ankles were next.... the cuffs still felt comfortable though... "is that better dear?" she asked... I nodded, it was, the bed was lovely and soft. "now, this is about focus. I am going to..... maybe cane you, maybe flog you... but you must allow yourself to relax, and it will get easier " I nodded.... i was preying it was not as harsh as the last time..
the first hit was very small. then the next, and next....I hardly felt it.... and after a few minutes, it all seemed to be quite easy... until I though about it....I could hear the cane hitting my flesh.. it sounded a lot worse than it was. it went on and on. but as it did, I noticed it was getting harder. there was a pattern... she was building me up. the odd one stung a little... this was getting worse. I put up with it for her. all the time she was talking to me.... i realised she had asked me a dozen times if I liked it, and each time, I had just nodded instictivly...
it was hurting a bit. but I felt floatie... the pain was detached from me. her insults were getting stronger and stronger. her voice was like a drug.... I focused on it.... like a mantra.. after a long time. she finally stopped. her voice sounded worn out....
"god, that was good..... your such a fucking great state now..." she ran her hands over my back and legs.... there were sore but I didnt mind.... she just sounded so happy. "was that good little bitch" that phrase made my mind melt. I nodded. and she flipped me over. she was now above me. she climbed onto the bed, and stroked my face...she just sat next to me, watching my eyes.... it felt a bit earie... "now..... what can I do with you now..... hmm. i cant mark your front... in case he takes you out tomorrow..." she was talking to me, like she expected a response.... the gag was now getting tiring, and I still needed the loo.
"are you hungry" she asked. I was a bit, so I nodded. "thats a shame dear, you told me not to give you junk food, and thats all ive got.... never mind" i remembered the little joke I made about my strict diet. "lets play a little game instead.. its called you do something for me...."
she let my arms go.. it was nice moving again.... i tried to show to her i needed the loo, by wriggling about. "god, your getting randy again... " I shook my head, and tried to show her... " sorry dear, I cant understand" it was driving me mad.
"now stop all that nonsense, and lean back.." she moved on top of me, and opened up her robe. she looked amazing for her age, but her body still looked older. "so, its been a few years has it..." I knew what she meant "will you to do this for me" she was moving her crotch up to my head. I nodded. I could smell her.... it had been such a long time... I was a bit worried. but I was in the moment. "come on little bitch, taste me" her vagaina was inches from my mouth. i wondered how to start, I had forgotten, I tried to kiss it, then I realised I had the gag on...
"now... i'm going to take that off.. do you promise not to talk out of turn, and speak only when spoken to" i nodded. she put her hands around my head, and in a second my mouth was free. it felt great.
she now was intently looking down at me. my arms were pinned down, and my head was now tightly clamped in her thighs. I could see she was a little wet already "what did you think, that this doesnt turn me on too, eh" I knew it would, but it was strange to see her wet. i thought of something to say. I nearly said thats better, but stopped myself.
"now fucking eat this" she dropped the last few inches, and I was in an old world... it tasted funny, but I remembered that taste, like nothing else. I finally got to kiss her intimatly, and it was great, i finally felt close to her. "now eat me, eat me now" at once I remembered how to. i slowly sucked at her lips, and I felt her tense up. this was working. I went on, and put my tounge into her, she instantly reacted by crying out "good, oh you good little bitch"
here I was in place i did not know, with someone I did not know. giving her oral sex. I felt so wild. I put all my effort in, luckily, I have a long, strong tongue, her taste was like a drug. it went to being funny to being nice, it was like it was intoxicating me.I was now randy myslef. we went for ages, she would life herself up a bit, and make me follow her, then she would sit back down, and squash me again. I was now feeling wild, i really wanted to touch something..... but I could not get near that bit of me.
"ohh, your my filthy little bitch now... "she was very wound up, and sounding really husky. I knew she was near. i tried harder and harder, and sucked her deeper and deeper. she was now gibbering on at me, I didnt care for what. then she suddenly stopped. her scream was so nice to hear. she was very vocal, and sounded so strong. her juices gushed out... it felt so great, her legs were twitching involantarily, and my head was totally immersed in her. she kept going, and was now spraying me with her cum. I knew what some of it was, but I just didnt care.
finally.. she came to rest. I was covered. my hair, face, and neck. she got up, and looked back at me.. she was as red as a beetroot, and was struggling to smile "its offical dear... you are now my filthy little bitch..... did you enjoy that?" I smiled and nodded.... then I realised I could now talk...I wanted the loo, but didnt want to break the moment. I still felt really turned on, and it was nice just laying there
"right" she ordered. "turn over, and face the bed..." i did as she asked.... I did not even want to talk. I tried to wipe some of her cum off my face, onto the sheet. "DONT DO THAT!" she was watching me. "put your arms out" I did as I was told..... she undid one cuff, and pulled it behind my back.. "other one please" she politley ordered. I was now laying there with my arms behind me. "now, lets see how load you scream...." she was on top of me... "time for you little treat... are you ready"
"yes", I whispered ot her.. I felt a bit embarrased.... "i'm so.." "shut up, no talking to me.... or i'l gag you again.... " she was very stern... "now push your bum up in the air for me" I did as she asked, and I felt a hand grab my crotch... "nice and wet now aern't you...." I nodded... her fingers felt so good in there. "lets give you what all bitches really need" she pulled her hand out, and I felt the dildo go into my vagina.... it was wonderful, it felt just right. she grabbed my bound wrists, and pulled me into her. "i'm going to fuck you like no guy every can honey" her words were now so sexy... she rode me gently, but firmly.. it was so great.... a little too much, but she pushed me just right, her whole body was behind it. my mind was away.... I was groaning... "come on, let it out little bitch.... tell me you love it" I told her.... "beg me to keep fucking you...." I begged and begged her, and her stroke got harder and harder. every bit of my body was sensitive, and I was now crying out... it was so good. "go on, let go... let it all out" her voice was angry now, and really intense... "if you dont come, i'm going to stick it somewhere else and make you come that way" although this was scary, it was exciting.. "your my filthy little fuck bitch" that was it....
I was now screaming.... a wave came over me... it was lovely my endorphins were flowing....... I screamed as load as I could.... and I felt myself starting to come.... "ohh yes.... go on, let it go honey" i did, I came and came... the first time I had ever done through penetration. it felt so liberating. I collapsed down.... I was feeling great... and now totally turned on....
"turn over you" she ordered.. i wriggled round.... she was looking so kindly at me...her eyes were watery, it almost made me tearful... "look at you... my silent little bitch.." she shoved her hand into my wet pussy, and felt around.... when it came out, she put it upto my mouth.. "taste yourself... " i did as she asked... it was weird doing it, and I felt a bit self conscious.. but it was nice... time and time again her hand went down there, and after a while she put her hand into her pussy as well. it was mind blowing. i did not want to talk. just do as she wanted...
after a while, we were both dry. she laid down next to me and gave me a cuddle... I was weeping, as I felt so emotional....... we said nothing... I felt so great.... we were both hot and sweaty, but slowly we became dry.... we both fell asleep.
"SHIT" she called out.... she got up, and ran downstairs.... the garlic smell was now amazing...... I looked forward to eating whatever it was.... I was starving now... and I remembered I needed the loo.
when she came back up, she was no longer wearing her heels... "thank god for that... nearly burned it" she explained.
"what is it?" i asked... I expected a nice run down of the meal, but instead I got something else. "who said its for you little bitch.. eh" she was very sharp now... "and who said you could talk... I think its time I shut you up." she went over and picked something up.... it was the gag I hade been wearing..... I only had seconds.... "but please, I need the loo, and I......" was all I had time to say. she shoved it firmly into my mouth, and tied it again....
"thats better, I cant stand a mouthy little bitch..." she was smiling so broadly at me... I was frowning, and really angry...
"well, I tell you what, I really fancy watching the television tonight, dont you?" i did nothing... I was mad... "ahh, all fiesty now.... remember what I can do to spoilt brats" she was right.... I nodded... she pulled me up, and we made our way to the stairs... then we stopped... "sit down" she helped me down...
"i know... lets play another game...." she went to a chest of drawers, and pulled something out, I was just sitting there. it was a large dildo... large but short... she walked up to me, and dutifully parted my legs, and pushed it into my vagina. "thats nice..now my little game, is called keeping it in..... you have to keep it in there as you go downstairs... all the way, or i'll make you start again.....
I made my way to the edge...and made my first careful move down the first stair..... with my hands behind my back, it was a bit easier going down the stairs.. she was in front, watching me. i tired to keep my legs together, but the dildo was giving me little surges of pleasure....
"dont drop it.... be a good little bitch and do as you are told" it was getting too much... by the time I had got halfway.. I was going mad.... "keep going.... " she was keeping eye contact, and that made me feel bad... we got down to the first floor, and it felt like a mile.....
she pulled me to my feet, telling me not to let go, and led me slowly to the bathroom... "now, you can go to the loo, but you must not let my toy go.." it was weird... with my hands behind my back... it was difficult sitting on her loo.... and especially with my legs tight together, I was stressed out now, as I didnt know how i would do it... as soon as I had sat, she shoved her hand between my legs... "now you can go honey" her words were warm and calming.... i tried to relax, and out it came... it was strange... her hand kept the didlo in tight, and I could feel them as I went... it was nice though.... I needed it...
after, she helped me up, with her hand still there... I was a bit messy.. "stand there" she carefully washed her hands in the sink... "thats better..."
I was a mess, i wanted a shower, a bath, or at least a hosing down.... anything will do... as she looked at me, I looked down at the bath, and tried to gesture her... she shook her head... "no... thats what filthy little bitch means darling" she simply led me out, with me struggling a bit.... she reminded me again about bad behaviour.
she got me to the next stairs, then looked at me...and stroked my hair... " i know this is really hard for you honey ... but I love keeping you like this" she smiled "I know you like getting all clean....... but I love the fact you are letting me keep you messy" I wanted to get clean.. but I felt in her care.... if she wanted this, i would do it for her. i felt relaxed...
the second flight was harder.... the dildo was now seriously making waves... ever bump pushed it in harder, and she was talking dirty to me.... that was so nice, but I couldnt focus.. by the forth step I was feeling hpot again. and ready to shout, and by the fifth I was going mad. "ahh, is that nice for you. little bitch?" i stopped, i was too turned on to go anymore...... my eyes were watering.... she looked at me, and twigged what was happening.. she had a cheeky grin... "no you dont... not until I tell you to.." it didnt matter, I was away, I was bouncing up and down... "dont you dare... i'll punish you..." she was trying not to laugh, but the more she cursed, the more turned on I was... , she grabbed my hair, and pulled it hard. that was it, my mind went... finally, I came again.. all over her stair carpet....
she stroked my face, and let my hair go, she looked proud of me... "i'm going to make you pay for that later.." her smile was so nice. the living room was just as we left it.... but it was now dark, and she turned the lamp on... it was really romantic in there..she sat me down on the floor, because she did not want the sofa to get dirty... that now felt a bit horrible.... and upset me.. she turned on the t.v., and moved me round to face it, back to the sofa..
"right. i'm off to get a shower, i'm in a disgusting state....." she quipped... she knew it would wind me up... as I heard the shower going I was a bit annoyed... I wanted to get clean, and enjoy a cuddle together on the settee, and maybe chat... and i was now starving, the garlic smelt so good... I tried to relax a bit, but I couldnt... so I intently watched the ten 'o' clock news, trying to take my mind off it.....
then the front door went...
someone was actually coming into the house.... they had a key... i heard the rustling of a coat coming off. i realised in a few seconds I would be discovered, I was a mess, who was it?, i struggled to move, but fell over onto my side... I tried to call, but could not.... where was she... the shower was still going..... I saw the coffee table and tried to wriggle behind it.. the dildo was still inside me, and I didnt want it laying on the floor, so I gripped on hard to keep it in.
the footsteps up the stairs were heavy, and lumbering... eventually they stopped. I was still trying to wriggle away when he came in. my heart was filled with fear, and every hair was on end... "hello there... you must be debbie then" I laid there, and stopped to make eye contact.... "mary's told me so much about you"
he was a very tall, well built man, in his late forties, or maybe early fifties... his hair was longish and straggly... he was still wearing his scalf.. his cheeks... were so rosy, he was massive, from his mouth to his feet. he seemed to have and old world quality... his tousers were made of tweed... all I could think to do was to nod. I wanted to cry... this was not a joke anymore.
"have you had a good day then....." he asked, politely turning his head to match mine... I nodded again... as I did, I heard the shower stop... "IS THAT YOU JOHN" she called out, down the stairs..... "no dear... its the axe murderer coming to rob you..." he looked at me and tutted....... he had a kind look about him, and he seemed totally unphased by me being there on the floor like I was. she was coming down the stairs....
she was wearing a towel, just about... she went up and kissed him........ I noticed they seemed really close. "this is my husband john, by the way, and john, this is debbie." I tried to respond.. I was getting frustrated... I needed to talk to them.. I didnt even know she was married... she looked at me "ooh, that shower was so nice, i really needed it.." it annoyed me... I felt awful.
"so how is the food doing......smells great" john asked her..... "god all you think of is filling that belly.........." she turned to go back upstairs... "by the way... leave her alone please, shes quite alright"
"ok darling" he looked at me. "sorry debbie... orders are orders.......er.. do you want a cup of coffee.?" I nodded intently....i was starving, and thirsty... and if I had coffee I could get this silly gag off.
I decided to face up to it... I was still lying on the floor. i slowly pulled myself up, and sat back up against the sofa.. I felt like sitting on it just to annoy her.... the dildo stayed in, but it no longer felt sexy. after a while... john came back in, complete with a cup of coffee... "here we go, let me just see if...." the stairs were going again....
"oh, you wen'nt going to give her a drink were you?" she was standing in the doorway.. she had a simple pair of jeans on, with a nice black top... "well yes dear... thats what we do with guests..." john was carefully talking down to her. she sat down next to me. "now, remember what i said honey.. no talking out of turn..." I nodded, and she promptly took the gag off.
I thanked her, and said hi to john... the coffee was lovely.... but she kept spilling it over me.. my hands were still behind my back, and she had to hold the cup for me, every spill was another hot jab down my front... but i just drank, i was so thirsty... as she was spilling over me, john was watching and shaking his head... "i needed that" I said as I finished... "shut up. I told you before..." she was so intent that I stay quiet...
"thats why we never get our meters read these days debbie" john remarked..... with a smile.. they talked about his day at work.. he work as a lecutrer at the local university... that made sense, he looked like one... he asked me how was my trip, and I answered him 'fine thanks' they then talked about his night out after work...
"oh yes, that new bar is great... you've just got to come next time..." he answered her.. "thats a point, what wine are you getting tonight.. " she asked him..... as i sat there I thought that question funny... it was nearly bedtime soon..
"i dont know, I left it upto jan and mark this time... otherwise we'd have been deciding all night..." he aswered... I tired to take that in... something was up.. "god knows what she'll get us then.." she sighed... "oh no, mikes pretty good, he knows what we like..." as he said this.... it wasnt just the garlic I smelled.. it was a rat...
I was getting concerned. were there people coming round?... I thought ok, she'd probably hide me upstairs... she said before she had a busy house, which is why most nights she was not available........... she got up, and checked her hair in the mirror. "how drunk is andrea by the way... I hope she doesnt wake the whole street up again"
john was looking at the telly.. "oh, sorry, no she's pretty good this time.....she's cutting back" "right.....I cant stand a loud alkie...." she was putting her hair in a bun. I knew people were coming round... I wanted to get cleaned up, and either hide upstairs, or go... I didnt quite know how to word it...... "oh, if you've got guests, i'd better sort myself out and get out of your hair" that sounded respectful.
she swung round, and knelt down facing me. "you have got to learn to shup up, and do as you are told little bitch" her words were quite a shock, as I was only trying to be helpful.. she leant over me.. I could smell her freshness and perfume... "right then, time for my little one to be silent again..." she grabbed the gag from the sofa behind me , and showed it to me, like some present.
I tired to reason with her "no, please, dont" but she was already putting it on, she was quite rough, and I could not fight her,she tied it around my head, and stood up. she had a wicked smile.
"you are her my my use, not yours." she quipped. "right, garlic mushrooms, john, can you help me" I sat there.... what was going to happen? was this all a game? surly she would not show her husband's friends me in this state. something else came into my mind. not a nice thought either... 'her use'... was I to be a plaything for her friends? that was not what I wanted....I did tell her I did not put it around with random people...
ding dong..... the doorbell. I was now panicking.... could I get up and hide? could i make it up those stairs quickly? john was already going to answer the door. i was preying they would walk past the living room into the kitchen... I was preying for my safety.... my mobile was in my bag upstairs, and I had not even made my safety call yet. maybe that was the answer... it would soon be time... but my other half was three hours away... and I did not know where I was even.. did he know??
the stairs were now bumping, and echoing to multiple people talking as they came up... I closed my eyes.. this is it... "hi...", "oh, hello" several voices, male and female called out.... i kept my eyes shut, wondering what to do... they were in the room. they were around me, making small talk. I opened my eyes, and the room was full.
one woman came into my veiw...."hiya, oh, you are awake.... i'm andrea..." she held out her hand, but I could not do anything, I could not even answer. she looked very intelligant, and caring.
I spun my head about... and groaned, that was all I could do. she looked back, in sympathy.... "you must be mary's new playpal, she was saying we might get to meet you." she was looking right at me, with a kind of 'lets be freinds look' but there was nothing I could do. I knew I was in a state. i could see stuff in my hair... my normal defence would be to make a joke... not being able to do that was killing me.
she found a place on the floor to sit opposite me... I tried to be attentive, but after a minute or two, I held my head down, it was getting too much.. "right, whats on the the wine list jan" mary asked.. I didnt notice her walking in...
"a nice mixture..." jan sounded very posh indeed.. "good" mary sat back down on the sofa, and put her legs either side of me.... andrea looked at her. "so mary, did your new playpal enjoy her first time" she asked, she seemed totally fixed on us, she looked down, as if to apologse for not talking to me directly. mary grabbed my hair "yes, i think so, but her first time is still going on........."
andrea looked puzzled. "so are you playing now then?" "yes.... you see, little honeykins here thought she was going to have simple couple of hours fun...." she pulled my hair hard.. "but when we spoke, she told me about how she needed to be more confidant" mary was now making me nod. andrea still had a puzzled look.
"so, andrea... what I am doing is.... embarrasing her socially.... " mary let go.. she was speaking carefully, and slowly "you see earlier, I made her really messy......but I didnt tell her you were all coming round, and fooled her into coming downstairs as she was....... so, right now she is going mad hoping you cant see or smell what she been upto"
andrea looked gobsmacked... "wow, so you actually like doing that kind of thing then" she was looking at me..... I shook my head and was feeling really upset at what she had just said. mary grabbed my hair again "you see right now she cant talk, and if she could move, she would get up, and run upstairs and cry....but when she agreed to come here, she agreed to let me do things that hurt her.." andrea looked at me, she had her sympathetic look... I hoped she would get up and save me.... "you poor thing" was all she said.
"dont worry.. i dont know what she has to be scared of... she doesnt know any of you, and she's had more fun today than any of you can imagine.... next month she'll be remembering this moment with a smile" that comment annoyed me, how did she know what I liked? john was passing wine around, and a glass came past my nose... it smelt great.
"so will that like make her more confidant" another, male voice asked. "maybe mike.........she's so introverted.....oh, god, I took her into a sex shop earlier, and you should have seen her blush, it was so sweet"
andrea looked at me with a cheeky smile. "ahh, that must have been lovely for her" I felt like some child. it was really getting to me, I turned around to try to face her, but I couldn't.... john was nattering about his students... they were looking at me though.... a wave was coming over me, I looked down... I was getting emotional...
"she looks like she getting really upset mary..." andrea commented. "good... that what I want....she cant get up and leave anyway...." mary answered... "oh, okay... I suppose I could let her answer some questions" she started to take the gag off again "now remember honey... dont speak unless spoken to, do you understand." she was holding the gag on still. I nooded, and it came off.
I thought that would be better... but it felt weird.... "so, its debbie, isnt it, has it been what you expected.?" andrea asked keenly..
ten minutes ago I was begging to be able to communicate.. now I was lost for words... I was too embarressed to talk.. i just mumbled... "it been okay"
my hair was pulled hard from behind.. "okay.. god, you ungrateful little wench, I've given you the works this evening, and all you can say is okay" mary voice was cheeky, she was luckily just joking herself. The equestions kept coming.... they were all really nice people, on a normal day I would be engaging them in bright and thoughtful conversation. but tonight I just felt emotional, and tired. one or two word answers are all they got.
john bought out the food. the garlic smell was mushrooms. they were stunning, done in a batter, the smell was making me both mad and sick.
andrea was drinking heavily.... she was a nice person, I was a good judge of that, but needy. a couple of times she stopped, came over, and gave me a sip of wine.. she found it funny.. she started callng me the prisoner. I smiled and made jokes I was mary's number fifty seven. mary was very quiet though. she talked to the others mainly. finally, after hours of salivating, andrea gave me my first taste of the garlic. it was lovely. the batter was crispy, and the inside was full of a warm butter.
I tried to feel better, andrea was paying me a lot of attention now, I could only give her short answers, I was trying to remember what mary had told me. I didnt want to be gagged again.. eventually she slid next to me.. that made me very uncomfortable, as I was aware I was not smelling that fresh. she told me all about her divorce, and how she needs to start getting out more, her caring side came out, and she was asking me about why I needed to do this.
Andrea was out and out drunk now, but not in a load, over the top, sense. I was actually starting to like her. until she said something.. her questioning moved onto my freindships. "you know, its a shame you dont live up here, we could hang out and have some real fun.... " was the first comment. I agreed, and thought it a shame she was in need of friendship too, but so far away..
"andrea... why do you think she is up here?" mary butted in... andrea shrugged her shoulders. "down where she is, she hasn't got a network as good as ours, and her other man doesnt really help her through emotional stuff" she was starting to understand. andrea clicked "ahh, god thats a pity..... I didn't know you had a partner.....whats he like then?"
I tried to answer, but mary stopped me. "hes quite nice actually andrea, from what i've gathered..." andrea looked perplexed "so is he alright with you doing this, you know..."
mary answered again... "debbie here is a difficult little creature andrea" she stroked my head, "she pretends to be all strong, but she needs someone like me to make her emotionally happy, oh yeah, and to beat her, and screw hair brains out" mary was laughing.. she sounded so callous with my situation, like it was some joke.
an arm came around me, andrea was giving me a sympathy hug. "god, I wish you were up here, I'd look after you" I felt uneasy.. as she was now too close to me. our hair was rubbing together.
"andrea be careful, see that stuff in her hair, thats not dandruff you know." mary words hit home. she was still managing to have a four way conversation with others, andrea pulled away, and suddenly realised the state I was in.
"right my little wench, time for you to shut up again.." mary grabbed my head from behind, and forced the gag into my mouth, it did not expect it, and it was so sudden. as she was doing it up, everyone was looking at me. she pushed my head to one side when she was finished.., and addressed the room laughing "thats better, isnt it"
I was getting upset again, the conversation had died a little at marys little side show. andrea got up to go to the loo, and I was on my own, isolated, and unable to talk... when she came back, andrea sat opposite me again, and barely gave me a look, but after a while she realised no one was talking to her much, so she centred back on me. "so mary, is debbie coming back up here again to see you?" andrea inquired
"no, I dont think so, she's alright to an extent, but she just cant control herself, she made a right mess of the stairway carpet, i'm surprised with that dildo still inside her there isnt another big wet patch on the floor." mary casually answered.
"oh my god....." andrea gave me a totally stunned look. the whole room went silent. suddenly there was laughter, one guy made a comment 'god.. greedy cow'.... andrea was still looking at me. jan made a joke she wouldnt invite me a barbeque, as I would be nicking all the sausages.................I felt ashamed they knew this....i wanted to tell them all to fuck off..... I didnt have any choice. I felt alone, and drained...
my connection to mary seemed really strong, yet she was rejecting me... that hurt, as I thought about it, the tears started coming...... a few tears... my head was facing the floor, and I just preyed no one could see me......... the tears were getting worse, my whole body was reacting... getting tense....i knew this feeling before, it was like a fire of emotion.
andrea didnt say a word, she was just looking at me in a concerned way, and looking back up at mary. after a while, it had an affect on her. "john, i'm going to take debbie up, she being a right pain now..." she got up, and stood in front of me.. "come on you... I think its time you had some sleep"
As she pulled me up, I felt so small... I was trying to fit in, and now she hade made me look like some grizzly child..... what the hell did she expect? she had totally abused my trust, and humiliated me in front of all these people...... as I inched past them all, I realised my nighty was still tucked into my bum, and it was on display for all to see, I was preying the dildo would stay in. I hoped no one could see the end of it. she said her goodbyes to everyone, and john gave us a split second look, before re-engaging in conversation with someone. as we got into the hallway she stooped me.
Debbie, can I have that dildo back please, its not sensible you try to climb the stairs with it again... I could not answer, and tell everyone it was her that put it in, not me. she pulled it out, and led me up... the front room was silent again, as they listened in to us going up....
the stairs took some time to get up, as she wanted me right at the top... now i was free of that awful room, I just wanted to lay my head down, and keep out of everyone's way... if she let me go, I decided I would even leave. We got to the top room, and she switched a small lamp on, she led to the bed, and I laid down, and turned away from her, she busied about, and the light went off. I waited for her to go back down the stairs...
instead she started to take my gag off, as soon as it did, she slipped into the bed with me, and gave me a cuddle. I didnt know what to say to her. I kept facing away from her.....she didnt like me? what was she doing with me? i was freaked out, and starting to get upset again... "are you okay honey?" she gently asked. what a stupid fucking question I thought.
"oh, yeah just fine...." I answered. with a sarcastic tone. "go, on tell me how you felt back there" her words were so soft, but I would have rather she hit me, I felt betrayed by her. "look, you dont even like me, so why do you care" my comment got me started.... I burst out crying... I just wanted her to go, go back to her freinds, and leave me... confiding in someone who didnt really want me was not my thing.
she pulled me onto my back, and laid over me, pinning me down. "hey, hey darling... ahhh, you really belived all that didnt you.... " she stroked my manky hair. "oh god you are so lovely....... you put up with all that for so long, even when it was making you so uncomfortable."
I was confused... I found it hard to say anything....... she tenderly gave me a kiss on the cheek.... "I was just pushing your boundaries for you... god you were amazing for a first timer... you've been really great" I was now totally screwed up with emotion.... i started to feel closer to her... I tried to wipe my eyes on her cheek. "i'm sorry, it was just a bit too much for me mary........its was really deep though.... thank you" she kissed me again tenderly.....
"who said its over, my little bitch"
I found it hard to talk about what had just happened, but she kept asking questions.... she was mulling over each and every minute detail of my ordeal...... she asked me about my feelings for andrea, and if I fancied her?.... I told her she seemed a good person, she asked me about being messy, and why it bothered me so so much.. I could not find an answer to that...
"but you looked so sexy there" she commented.... I asked her why....... all I knew was that I must have looked like a manky tramp. "well, of all the people there honey , it was obvious you had just had amazing sex, and had enjoyed it.... if I had scrubbed you up and made you all clean, it would not have been so obvious."
she stroked my cheek "thats the thing you see, all those people you met tonight, they may never have the sex we have.... they haven't got the balls.... but... they'll be going to bed tonight, individully dreaming they could, but they wont tell their other halfs what they feel, they'll be too scared"
the questions kept coming, but I was getting tired... I had a damn good cry... she kissed my tears which was lovely..... I politely asked her never to do that again... and she said it would never happen, unless she felt I really needed it again. that made me feel strange... like a puppet with no thoughts of my own.... she cut in with a perfect answer "that's what submission is honey.... its about you willingly giving those decisions to me" "why do think I dragged you up here again?" she asked... I just shrugged...
"because its now five past twelve.... happy birthday" she kissed me on the forehaed, and gave me a hug... "I wanted us to be in private at twelve.." she held onto me, and gently stroked my hair... I felt like I was in heaven.
after a while... I was in a different place.. I was not angry, I was not upset.. I was emotional, but it was like seomone had.... I could not describe it.... I felt like she really understood me, and wanted to know all my inner stuff, it sort of made me feel like a child again maybe... having her tell me what I needed.... yet she reckoned she knew what I needed.....even if I didnt like it......that was why it felt like childhood...... did I really need what I just went through??? the thought of what had happened eventually made me smile, as I realised I had to tell my man flash about it when I got back....
.. a thought came across me...... our relationship..... and my little hang up.... I would never have sex with him unless I was clean, tidy, and groomed. and two minutes after sex I would crave getting clean again.......... it meant we never had sex at work..even though I often felt really randy during the day....... but when I got home, and had a bath, I would fall asleep after, as I was so shattered....... the only time i was clean, and not tired was weekends...... it was one of his major bugbears with me...us only having sex at weekends....
I only enjoyed sex when I was relaxed about myself.............. had he told her this???? "it's lovely to see you smile...." she was looking at me... A big grin hit me.. I knew why she had done that "you cow... " I called out.... she smiled back... and finally I broke out a little giggle.... "now can I have a bath PLEASE" I asked....
she now had an evil grin. "I was going to, but since you've shown me disrespect, and called me a cow, I think you should wait another few hours..." she got up, walked to the mirror, and tidied her hair...... "i'm gonna disappear now honey, and see the guests off, and then i'm going to give john some of my time... he's been lovely tonight." she walked back upto me.... "now if I hear you call, or wimper even once... i'll quieten you down again... do you understand?"
I nodded. "do you want me to silence you?" she asked as she stroked my hair... I shook my head... I was now so used to not talking..
"now get some sleep, you might need it" she walked off, and left me there. I straight away felt a feeling of insecurity...... I wanted her to come back, and lay with me.... laying there on my own was not nice.......I was desperate to get clean........within minutes I was wondering how long she would be...
I could hear people downstairs chatting, and some laughing..... were they laughing at me?? probably...... I realised for the first time being a sub meant having a lower status... she did dirty deeds, yet I carried the dirt..... they must have thought me a looser, to be pushed around like that... did they think her a winner?
after a while.. I stopped thinking. and fell asleep. I dont know what time she came back in... the first I knew was a gentle blowing over my face... "wakey wakey..." she was pulling me onto my back, my hands were still firmly secured behind me... "lets play a game..."
without any warning, she got up on the bed, and sat on my face... her legs were hot, and they squeezed me again... i was still half asleep.... "go, on, I really need you to..." she was turned on, I could tell now by her voice.. as I tried to open my eyes fully, but they were plunged into darkness... "eat me now, little bitch" she thrust her wet pussy onto my lips, and I tasted her again...
"I need you to lick me out now..." she was going wild... I did as she asked... it was like being in a dream... a nice one... I could barely hear her, but i could feel her every move..... my tounge went deep inside her, and worked its way around... something was a little different.... I could not work it out, I was just enjoying her needing me... as i was coming round, I was getting turned on myself, like a lovely sex dream coming true... I sucked and licked her harder than before, and got into the moment... she did not take much longer... this time she gripped my head so hard, my sight went fuzzy... she gushed all over me again, it was fantastic... she was screaming, I think, or it might have been growling...
"go on, keep going, have it all. make me clean inside." she begged, as she loosened her grip on me... I did as she asked, I was gloriously covered in her, but it was lovely... the first time was nice, but this felt wonderful, I suddenly wanted every little bit, and took my time over it. she groaned, and flew both insults and compliments at me... by now I was so hot... I needed something....
finally she pulled off me.... "fuck, you are the best slut i've ever had honey.." she collapsed next to me, and grabbed my nipple... "but you should really ask your other half before eating my other half's cum though..."
I lay there.... I tried to work out what she had just told me... then the taste, it reminded me of something a bit..... "eh" I asked.... suspicious... "going down on me after john has fucked my brains out...." she casually answered.... I was right.... it made me feel queasy.......and that made me mad....
"mary, what.... do you think your are doing?" I was on a roll... "thats a really shitty fucking thing to do to... " she twisted my nipple... "listen, you told me you dont want sex with guys... you didnt say you wouldnt go down on a woman after she just a sex with a guy, did you" she let go... "you loved it, you must have known, fucking hell, dont you even know what guy come tastes like?"
"yes, i do...of course I do.." I did love it...... but only my other halfs... "so you suck your man off and swallow it then??" her question made me blush...
I nodded... she smiled... she had me, and we both knew it... "so you fucking should... you'd be in trouble if you didn't... so do you go down on him after he's fucked you then?"
I was really blushing now.... and smiling... I gave her a shy nod again... she pinched my nipple hard... "see honey, I knew you'd love it, your a proper cum slut..... so whats the difference between them?.... I mean all four of us are connected now really....." I thought about that.. "it just doesnt feel right.... I feel guilty....." I whimpered...
mary let go..... and towered over my head...."ohh, god.. dont be so silly, think of it this way....... I love john, and he loves me, and he likes you, which is why he shares me with you...... you love your man, and I like him, he likes me and john, and so shares you with me, and now I really fancy you, so, by my calculation, that makes you the filthy little bitch cumslut in the group...."
she was like some mad headmistress giving me a lecture.... and her looking at me funny, and her smile, finally made me giggle............
she watched me as I smiled back.... i loved it... I actually had no cares in the world.... I had just done some really perverted stuff, and started to feel a bit proud... i wondered what john would say to me in the morning, and just hoped he did not offer me any milk or cream.... "whats so funny" she asked... "i'm not going to be able to look at john tomorrow..." I answered...
"oh, dont worry, he knows i'm upto something, I never have sex with him at night.... he'll be more embarrased than you." she laughed back.. "relaxed now honey?" I nodded.. this was a funny moment to remember for the rest of my life.... we both giggled and talked, but quickly I faded........
when the light came through the windows it was not obvious at first... its was lovely though. there was a reddish glow.. like an old house of mine... I tried to move, but could not... i was lying on my front, with my hands behind me still... my legs felt like they were no longer mine....
"morning" was all I heard... a hand ran over me..... "did you sleep well?" I didnt know how long she had been there, but it was nice having someone to wake upto, I turned slowly to look at her, and she looked totally knackered... different to the night before... her hair was everywhere, and she could barely open her eyes....
"oh shit, its nine 'o' clock... weve got stuff to do..." she got straight up, and nearly fell back down... "ahh, I hate hangovers..." I didnt even remember her being drunk... she undid my ankle straps, but left my wrist straps on..., "time for your birthday gift.." she walked off again...
my birthday gift was nice.... it was intense and loving, and deep.... it was something I really enjoyed... she knew exactly how to get me into that place, and kept me there, this time she was very careful, and slowly made love to me... by the end I was nealy crying with joy... it made all the little hassles feel like nothing... "now you dirty little cow... its about time you stopped soapdodging..." she said with a smile..
my bath was interesting.... against all my will, i trusted her to wash me, as i was tills cuffed. I had no choice, either trust her, or stay messy. I had never had that.... she pushed my head underwater, while holding my nose.... i have a fear of water, but somehow i felt a trust in her....
afterward she moved my cuffs to my front... after my bath, we had a shower, and I washed her... it was not easy wearing cuffs, but she enjoyed it... it wasnt long before I was in her bedroom again, having my hair dried.... this time we said very little... i did not know what to say.... i knew her so well, yet so little.... she let my cuffs go just long enough to get into a pair of her pyjamas.... then we went downstairs for breakfast...
now i was a little bit hungry, but on edge.. i was being led down in cuffs, to her other half, I could hear the raido on in the kitchen, and the smell of toast.... "hi trouble" he called out, looking so happy..... "did you sleep well..., silly question isn't it?" his cheeks looked so red, and he seemed gloriously awake...
"good morning john" I answered... as I sat down... john turned around, and looked right at me, like I was a trusted pal "happy birthday by the way, I wont ask your age... but you must be young, as you are seeing my devilwoman..."
we started chatting, john was really relaxed, and cool, he had a sense of homour similar to mine, and seemed to like me being there.... being able to talk to him was really nice, and I was jabbering on.... he seemed totally unconcerned about our activities... and he made me feel relaxed about being there..... until he got some strawberries out of the fridge....
"oh, she said they were you favorite, so I got you some..." john commented, putting a bowl of them down in front of me.. as I was thanking him... mary was moving in with a spoon, with a wicked smile... "do you want some cream with those debbie" as he stood there holding the cream, I tried not to smile, but a big grin came out, followed by a chuckle... john looked at me, and looked at mary.. and looked confused....
I was fed my strawberries and cream... it was nice, but having half of it spilt down my front for fun was annoying... mary just kept laughing... at the end she kept giving me spoonfuls of cream.... calling me a cream whore ... john was still puzzled, but watched us having fun....
"right, lets get you ready for our night out shall we...." she said as the spoon went down for the last time....
I frowned at her... and she explianed.... "you know, your meal out tonight, sounds like fun" I was still trying to work it out.... "is your little place really the best around?, god, john and I love thai food............flash invited us.......... hope you didnt mind...." the three of them had planned it.......
now nearly every birthday, I have my usual meal, at the thai diner I love so much........I used to virtually live in there.. but these days, its the only time of year I get to visit them and say hi again, it was like a routine for me....... it was five minutes from my parent's house where I grew up.... so it was always sweet just having a relaxed meal with my closest loved ones......
"oh wow, great" as my words came out, my mind was racing.... I felt guilty at not inviting her, but hell, how did I know she would even be remotely interested in my vanilla life?........ then a feeling of dread..... I hardly knew these people, and flash, my other half had never met them...... how could I have an intimate meal with my parents and close family with them as well? mum would ask straight away how we knew each other.... a pang of fear went through me..... I felt sick....
she undid my cuffs, and finally for the first time in nearly a day, I was free.....
we went upstairs, and slowly got ready. my first job was to clean the cream off my front.... it had got everywhere... we would be going in john's car, and not by train... I couldnt really focus.. I kept thinking about how I was going to explain them to mum and dad..... ok, we both knew a lot of people, but mum knew that I rarely let anybody new in to my 'inner' circle...
as she was fussing, getting herself ready.. I was now ready... i did not have much to wear... as it was all over 150 miles away at home... "we've got to go shopping first, by the way" I asked her what for....
"well, you need an outfit dont you...." she pulled up her skirt... "you cant go out like that..." I was annoyed, I actually looked okay, it was just I had been wearing these clothes since yesterday.... "oh, dont worry, I'll have a spruce up, and change when I get back home" i commented....
"no.... your not going home till late.... your going shopping, and i'm going to find you something really nice and sexy to wear" now I was annoyed.... I did look sexy already... I started to have a vision, of her insisting I wore some stupid dress out......... no way...
I gathered my courage, and lodged my protest.."mary, thanks, but I know what suits me, I dont need someone to dress me... sorry" I waited for the fight... mary stopped what she was doing... "of course honey, i know you look great, I just thought it would be nice if you got some new jeans and a sexy top for tonight..."
the rest of the day was great..... apart from the fact she made me put some love eggs inside me all day.... I had never tried them, but her advice was spot on.... they did make me very hot... we went shopping, and she barely got in my way, I bought what I wanted, and she wholeheartedly approved... john had no idea I was walking around with the eggs inside me... his car was big and comfy, and we both sat in the back, and called him jeeves...
the diner was fab, but the first minute was complete terror... I introduced them as some car freinds of ours, and mum didnt even bat an eylid... flash hugged mary like she was along lost pal... something he would not do.... I suspected some coaching went on.... the whole night was surreal.... mary kept asking my mum questions, only about little things, but it kept making me blush, john was happy, and just gently ate and drank, with the odd comment about the state of the country to my dad and flash...
when we all left, we stood outside.... mary walked upto me, gave me a kiss on the cheek, and whispered in my ear... "go on, little bitch, give your man what he needs now" they left to go back home.... and I said bye to my family.... I felt totally a totally different person to 36 hours ago.... at last I was alone with my man again.... i wondered what he would say....
he looked at me and smiled........"so, what do those eggs feel like dear"
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