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masterzpet -> epiphany (10/9/2004 8:52:31 AM)
twinkle twinkle little star do you ever wonder what you are? I've been reading here for a quite a while. Just found this site last year but have been "in the lifestyle" for about 6.... casually. I don't know what I am. I know what I'm not... switch doesn't apply... Domme doesn't apply.... slave doesn't apply.... bottom doesn't apply.... after reading here, sub doesn't apply and vanilla definitely doesn't apply. Does anyone else feel like they are that shade of gray that no one else can see?

RogueDom -> RE: epiphany (10/9/2004 9:06:04 AM)
Well pet for me right now so many new things are being learned and so many doors opening within me that I'm not totally sure either, I know I'm dominant, and I know Im not Gay but things that I didn't have a taste for seem very appealing to me now and there are so many things I'd never known of. I suppose we are all in a state of flux until we die, but that sounds far better than stagnation...Mike[;)]

LadyAngelika -> RE: epiphany (10/9/2004 9:11:09 AM)
quote: I suppose we are all in a state of flux until we die Well said. At the risk of coming off like a one note samba, more and more I consider myself just plain ol' kinky. - LA

masterzpet -> RE: epiphany (10/9/2004 9:23:15 AM)
quote: I suppose we are all in a state of flux until we die, but that sounds far better than stagnation well, my shade of gray feels stagnant at the moment. I think it is great when others can at least define a portion of themselves. Maybe these labels aren't so great? I never liked labels anyway. quote: I consider myself just plain ol' kinky Now THAT I can relate to... but is it plain or twisted? lol

smilezz -> RE: epiphany (10/9/2004 9:29:39 AM)
grinz and grinz I love this topic! I know exactly what you mean...although i will say that i am.... slave...submissive....power bottom....bitch from hell....lover....and all of the above. Thorns: yes pet, you are a shade of grey...only a sunny shade of grey (He is sitting here and added His thoughts) gawwwddd life is grand! ~smilezz~

masterzpet -> RE: epiphany (10/9/2004 9:36:00 AM)
Thank you smilezz.... and Thorn quote: a sunny shade of grey That sounds better than what I come up with [:)]

LadyAngelika -> RE: epiphany (10/9/2004 9:42:29 AM)
quote: ORIGINAL: masterzpet quote: I consider myself just plain ol' kinky Now THAT I can relate to... but is it plain or twisted? lol Oh very much twisted! - LA

sub4hire -> RE: epiphany (10/9/2004 10:40:03 AM)
quote: I don't know what I am. I know what I'm not... switch doesn't apply... Domme doesn't apply.... slave doesn't apply.... bottom doesn't apply.... after reading here, sub doesn't apply and vanilla definitely doesn't apply. First thing I would embed into my mind is, our beliefs do not make you a person or not. In my opinion the message boards are a place to come chat with like minded people. Sometimes we agree and sometimes we don't. I know..on a personal level I don't agree with a lot. Does this define who I am as a human being? Nope, they are'nt living with me on a daily basis. We only see here what we choose to allow others to see of ourselves. Nobody knows who we truly are. I don't care if some of us have 3000 posts, it means nothing. So, why allow someone you've only met online to define what roles you should be? Granted there are a couple of people who posts to the boards regularily that I do respect. In person, I can't say I know I would respect their views. If I ever get the chance to find out I'll let you know. I'd suggest do some soul searching. Your name here is Masterzpet. That gives us much idea of who you used to think you were before you were bombarded with so many varying viewpoints here. Look within yourself. Not out to the world to define who you are. You are the only one who needs to be happy with yourself.

masterzpet -> RE: epiphany (10/9/2004 10:54:25 AM)
Hi Gloria, I think you misunderstand my comments. I've not been looking for anyone to define me and I didn't come to this place to do so. My epiphany is a surprise really as I thought I knew exactly what I was and wanted. After reading a lot and thinking about things, I realized that I don't feel like I fit. The opinions here and elsewhere have served as a catalyst for my own thoughts but it was my own personal reflections that have brought me to these conclusions.

LadyAngelika -> RE: epiphany (10/9/2004 11:10:54 AM)
quote: Your name here is Masterzpet. That gives us much idea of who you used to think you were before you were bombarded with so many varying viewpoints here. So what is your hourly rate sub4hire? ;) - LA

LadyAngelika -> RE: epiphany (10/9/2004 11:11:10 AM)
quote: ORIGINAL: masterzpet The opinions here and elsewhere have served as a catalyst for my own thoughts but it was my own personal reflections that have brought me to these conclusions. That is wonderful masterzpet. In my opinion, people interact on these message boards for two major reasons: to give/share information or to take/receive information. We will give and take based on our experience. Granted some like the sound of their own voice (look of their own words in this medium perhaps?) and some sit in the shadows and read, but in general, I find most people here have a good balance of give and take, which is what makes this a wonderful multithreaded dialog. And it's normal that dialog makes you think. In fact, if it didn't shake you up and question your original stance then you would be a being unable to evolve. Welcome to the boards and I hope you stick around a bit. So far, I much appreciate your contributions. - LA

anthrosub -> RE: epiphany (10/9/2004 11:28:38 AM)
In the world of computer programming, there's a value known as "NULL" which means "undefined." Without it, programming would be quite impossible. Although i label myself a submissive male, i pretty much feel NULL most of the time. i think this is because until i find a partner, i cannot "be" anything for the time being (other than a human being). For me, this is the excitement (and hopefully) the promise of one day being able to serve. When that day comes, i will become defined by my Partner/Owner and the journey will finally begin in earnest. anthrosub

happypervert -> RE: epiphany (10/9/2004 12:06:51 PM)
Just my opinion, masterzpet, but if you don't feel like you fit any of the standard definitions then it is like being Elvis before the world had all the Elvis impersonators. Good for you! But perhaps this is my own contempt for the labels that could be applied to me -- I may even find someone applying one of the obvious labels to me (like those from work, education, or ack age or something else) so I'll do something outside that box just so folks don't think they have me figured out. quote: Does anyone else feel like they are that shade of gray that no one else can see? If you want folks to see you, then put on that grey sequined Elvis jumpsuit and make a sport of blowing their minds.

LadyShoshin -> RE: epiphany (10/9/2004 12:27:52 PM)
quote: ORIGINAL: masterzpet twinkle twinkle little star do you ever wonder what you are? I've been reading here for a quite a while. Just found this site last year but have been "in the lifestyle" for about 6.... casually. I don't know what I am. I know what I'm not... switch doesn't apply... Domme doesn't apply.... slave doesn't apply.... bottom doesn't apply.... after reading here, sub doesn't apply and vanilla definitely doesn't apply. Does anyone else feel like they are that shade of gray that no one else can see? Whatever you are is the perfect thing for you to be, if you fit a label, wear it, if you don't, just be who you are. You don't need to worry that you don't fit a label, just be happy wearing the label that says "Me"

Nvernilla -> RE: epiphany (10/9/2004 12:32:02 PM)
Yea I met a guy the other day who had been a strong dominant all his life and just up and went submissive. I think sometimes we may not even know ourselves, and that may have its good points too...Mike

msjingles -> RE: epiphany (10/9/2004 12:48:05 PM)
I haven't felt comfortable with my username for a while now.... since I'm not the pet of any master right now, so I changed it to just be me. I hope no one minds. Thanks to all that have posted. There certainly are some very insightful, intelligent and witty people here.

msjingles -> RE: epiphany (10/9/2004 12:49:08 PM)
Oh poo! I just realized.... with my other user name I had finally made it to "curious". Now I'm vanilla again sigh lol

sweetpleaser -> RE: epiphany (10/9/2004 3:32:27 PM)
lol, just keep posting and you'll get up there again. I know how you feel about where you fit into this lifestyle. I have been going through the same thing. I know I am not slave material, not bi, not poly, not a pain slut, etc.. I have always been kinky and very sexual so I am going with "sensualist". I use that label as a conversation starter only. I agree with LadyAngelika, I'm just plain kinky. Good luck, ann

smile2cu -> RE: epiphany (10/9/2004 5:01:31 PM)
I had trouble with the labels for a while myself. I'm listed as a sub male, but that really doesn't do it very well at all. Pleaser is the closest single word label I've been able to find, as I love to please people, particularly women. One of my better traits is that when I get into something, I get into it in depth, so like navigating a boat, surfing, scuba diving and working out before them, I've done pretty well in pleasing women. Like everything else: Learn how and practice. I wouldn't worry to much about labels. Just be you. And you've got the nicest looking eyes I've ever seen. Great pic! Vanilla isn't so bad. We know you're still curious. Maybe even more. [:)] I've been following your posts. Good luck to you! ~smile~

msjingles -> RE: epiphany (10/9/2004 5:33:33 PM)
Ann and smiles, it's nice to know I'm not the only one. [:)] Smiles, thank you for the compliment... I figure they are my best asset. In fact, I have a saying I used to use and might just add it to my profile.

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