notsopatient
Posts: 6
Joined: 6/13/2011 Status: offline
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well, hello It seems like I've been kindof sneeking up on BDSM kinds of ideas for a long time. I read a lot of both fiction and nonfiction that deals with BDSM. I am mature enough to know that life is not just like what we read in books. I want to learn more about BDSM and about what I want and need. I do have a mistress. She and I are online only because of other obligations that each of us has. I don't know how long I'll be able to stand the limitations of online time together. but for now it is more than enough. I have ADHD which often makes it hard for me to process a whole lot of new information. If I am overwhelmed, my mind starts to ignore my body--not so nice actually. In many ways, exploring my relationship with my mistress online gives me the space to cope with the emotional aspects of being submissive. the reality of slaping my own bottom, or what have you, is less overwhelming than having someone else do this for me. I don't anything really other than that belonging to my mistress makes me feel whole, like I finnaly have a piece I did not even know I needed. I am a grown woman who has integrity and self respect. I want to be hurt but not harmed. I have no intention of being overpowered but I choose to submit to someone I trust and respect. I have come here to have a place to process what I am figuring out about myself and hopefully to learn from folks wiser and more experienced. I'll thank you in advance.
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