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LadySonelle -> RE: Rape paradox (10/12/2004 8:06:51 PM)
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I find your fascination, interest and desire to re-enact the scene of rape to be quite normal.
It is your mind, now strong enough and experienced enough and distanced enough, trying to re-integrate the experience, to come to grips with it and put it in the past.
You should go with this. Find a Domme who is skilled and sensitive, who is experienced enough to know how far to go and when to stop.
In a way, just as broken skin, while healing, itches intensely, it is like your mind and soul, in the healing process, are 'irritated' or 'itching' and you need to soothe, confront and deal with the causes. I think that this desire on your part is perfectly normal. But it will require a mistress of great skill to help you re-enact this without causing further hurt.
Sometimes the very most important part of a cene is the "aftercare" which comes immediately afterward, then the next day or so as well. The sub and the Domme talk it out, re-hash and revisit the scene, parsing out the details and finding revelations in the directions the play took.
Good luck in your search. I would advise you to go with what your mind and soul want you to do. This is the *very* best, most positive, healing aspect of BDSM.
Lady Sonelle
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