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Where I Am At, Where I Have Been - 6/23/2011 2:32:24 AM   
DerrickDiesel


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Hey CM,

I wanted to take a few minutes and finally write a long post on my short experience in this lifestyle. I'm really non traditional, I've paved my own way in BDSM the way I want it to be, and I've enjoyed doing it. So if/when part of my story,  the things I believe, and the style I practice offends anyone I apologize. It's not my intent. I'm here to meet, learn, and grow, with like minded kinky people.

Where I'm at: I fully, completely, and totally own 2 older gay male slaves. 1 had been fully owned for 6 months now, the other for 2. I'll give a quick look into each of these relationships, then how the 3 of us all work together, and my sort of history. Should be fun. Hope you enjoy the read.

First, Slave Joe. I own him permanently, no way out. He is 76 years old. We met back in January and immediately found that we had a deep, dark desire in common. Which was a full, forced, permanent servant/slave. It was pretty serendipitous I'd just reached a point in this lifestyle where I had decided this was something I wanted. He had always harbored this secret fetish his entire life, does not believe in an afterlife, and wanted to live out this fantasy in a very real way before he died. It was effortless to begin and we've had some amazing times.

My other slave, David is 44. We met on different terms but struck up the same quick fascination. He has a fetish for rough abuse, by younger straight men. And loves to be a servant, and be controlled. On our first meeting we ate a nice lunch, drove around sight seeing (we were in his city) and then I took the opportunity to give him a few solid punches to the stomach and arms and send him on his way.

Both of my slaves live in Charleston, SC. I got to meet them both in person earlier in May on the same day. And that really cemented what had been going on. I live in Wilmington, which is about 3.5 hours away.

I met both of them on another site, under the premise of cash slavery. Which is how I initially got into the scene was just a thought that it would be cool to have gay guys send me money, just because I'm straight. A flawed and foolish view for sure, but I was young. What has developed with both of these slaves is so much more than that. Cash is secondary, Control and Service first. They would both, without question, miss paying their mortgage payments in order to send me money to go out partying, were I to request it (I wouldn't).

I truly care deeply for both of these pieces of property. They've given me an outlet to explore a deep desire of controlling another person, in a completely consensual way. And with David, I have the opportunity to explore what I consider to be my sickest fetish, viciously abusing another person's body and mind, really really rough use. And with both, our relationship is entirely about service and ownership, it's nothing sexual, yet it can be highly erotic.

Now I'm sad to say that I haven't done anything like this with girls. I just have sex with girls. I haven't gotten into a BDSM relationship with a girl, and I'd really like to. I have rough sex sometimes. But I'm talking about some of the more depraved fantasies I have. Which I'll share elsewhere, more privately.

Some things I'd like to explore in the near future. A lot more submissive females for one. More service oriented slaves in my area. And full time live-in slavery, with either a male or female. For complete TPE ownership. I could have either of my slaves move in with me, but I'm actually going to buy a house for myself before I have a live-in slave as I have room mates now. I travel a lot, and would love to meet up with other people who are into this lifestyle in my travels. Throughout the summer I will be in New York, Los Angeles, Las Vegas, Miami, Charleston, and Chicago at various times. Starting with Vegas in about 3 weeks.

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RE: Where I Am At, Where I Have Been - 6/23/2011 4:50:30 AM   
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RE: Where I Am At, Where I Have Been - 6/23/2011 6:29:02 AM   
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Is there a question hidden in there?

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RE: Where I Am At, Where I Have Been - 6/23/2011 6:31:48 AM   
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Shouldn't this be in intro?

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RE: Where I Am At, Where I Have Been - 6/23/2011 6:34:28 AM   
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So you have these dudes and you don't really respect them or think of them as real men as I recall. And now you want one of the "girls" to join this little party of yours.

It doesn't sound exactly appealing, and you don't sound exactly charming. I rather like being respected. Little quirk of mine.

but hey... good luck,
sunshine

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RE: Where I Am At, Where I Have Been - 6/23/2011 6:46:42 AM   
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I would never say I don't respect them. If you mean my other post about submissive men. I was strictly talking about submissive straight men, I might not of made that distinction. Submissive gay men are completely different in my view. I have a lot of respect for my slaves and their emotions, needs, and desires.

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RE: Where I Am At, Where I Have Been - 6/23/2011 7:51:48 AM   
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That's fantastic. I'm all for you finding your road to happiness.
However, if you'll pardon my curiousity, I have a question.
You state here that you have paved your way into BDSM the way you want
it to be, yet you then add that you are sad that you have yet to
experience this with women. And in your profile, which I found to be very well
written by the way, you point out that you keep this side of you a secret from them.
What are you afraid of?

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RE: Where I Am At, Where I Have Been - 6/23/2011 9:29:25 AM   
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Well when I stated "the way I want' I suppose I meant that in the context of the two slaves I have. It's not in any way a traditional master/slave relationship (If ever there were such a thing).

What I've missed experiencing with women is the true master/slaves dynamic there. To date it's only been bf/gf type relationships.

What I mean to possibly keep secret is my slave relationships with girls who I am "sort of" dating. I have a few girlfriends. But the idea of owning two men, one twice my age, one three times. And the things that go on between us. Are what a lot of 18-22 year old girls would consider to be quite weird. If that makes sense?

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RE: Where I Am At, Where I Have Been - 6/23/2011 10:06:47 AM   
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Gotcha! Thanks for clarifying, and continued good luck along your path.

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RE: Where I Am At, Where I Have Been - 6/23/2011 11:46:21 AM   
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what`s up with the fingers,

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RE: Where I Am At, Where I Have Been - 6/23/2011 1:39:26 PM   
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quote:

ORIGINAL: ashjor911

what`s up with the fingers,

Welcome To CM


It's a kid thing. At least no one's doing the "duck lips".

OP- welcome & good luck.

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RE: Where I Am At, Where I Have Been - 6/23/2011 3:01:47 PM   
DerrickDiesel


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Yeah apologies for the flipping off. I'd crop it out if I easily could. I realize it makes me look like a bit of a douche. But I figure by keeping it for now, people just assume I am and I'll get a lot more leeway in my initial behavior. 

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RE: Where I Am At, Where I Have Been - 6/23/2011 3:22:48 PM   
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With the exception of the parts I found homophobic, I enjoyed reading your profile. Best of luck to you. I hope you continue to participate on the forum side here.

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RE: Where I Am At, Where I Have Been - 6/23/2011 3:43:17 PM   
DerrickDiesel


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Honestly, the homophobic bits are really just a vibe between me and the submissive gays whose type I am. It's sort of just a strategy I developed to weed out all of the guys who think they can charm me into having sex with them lol, seriously. I found that the ones who respond to slight versions of what I call "gay bashing" talk are the type more interested in submissive service and not straight worship sex fantasies. Personally I have no homophobia whatsoever.

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RE: Where I Am At, Where I Have Been - 6/24/2011 8:44:19 AM   
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Welcome to the boards.  And don't think that you'll be given leeway because you've got the finger thing down.  On the contrary, it'll make it tougher for you to be taken seriously.  Good luck though.  

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