perverseangelic -> RE: Your first time?? (5/26/2006 8:12:32 PM)
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~shrug~ I don't do the 'subspace' thing that I'm aware of. I -do- get really nice endorphin highs, but I think that's something else entirely. One thing that I -have- been able to do lately, that's kinda related, is put myself in a place where I can just ACT without being embarassed or agonizing over it. That is, when we're in public and he tells me to do something that makes me uncomfortable, I've finally found the place that lets me just do it, and be damned what else is going on. We were at a party for the munch we attend two weeks ago, in front of a lot of people, he finished hitting me, told me to take off my clothes and crawl over to someone else. This isthe kind of thing that, in public, gives me a...a nervousness...but I was ableto go into that mental place and just act. So, not subspace, but definatly a mindset. Which I gotta say was probably nicer, and more rewarding (for me) than any altered state I could acheive.
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