ScatteredRose
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Joined: 3/9/2010 From: New Orleans Status: offline
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Hello! I've been battling with a bit of an issue for a few weeks, asked a few friends and got their input, but I guess I do want to get all sides. For a couple years, I would randomly get anxious. It would be a one night thing where I felt restless and needed to go run or do something active. This would go on while I was living at my parent's house and I just chalked it up to cabin fever. (My parents were sick and I stayed home when I didn't go to work to take care of them). Then I finally moved out with my roommates...and the same problem has been occurring. Again, it was periodic. Until about a month ago. It has happened every week, to the point of where I was having tightness in my chest, restless energy, and anger. I know psychologically, if I was experiencing true panic or a panic attack, I wouldn't be as lucid. I guess because I would stop for a moment and think, I was able to calm myself down a little bit...And trying to self diagnose myself which, yes, is a big no-no. But I was trying to pin-point EXACTLY what might've been causing the attacks. So here is the correlation I was able to find: Whenever I get some new books, and I read them, I burn through them. I find myself having to put them down whenever I'm reading at home though. I need to stop for a least five minutes and I suppose "take in" everything I just read. I always feel really thirsty, even though I will drink 8 cups of water. I'm on the computer. Those are some of the things I believe I was feeling/doing before the attacks come. My roommate speculated that I just was wanting to be more active because I want to lose weight. (I don't exactly believe this is true, I don't THINK I need to lose weight...) The other said I might be feeling guilty about something. But that again, I'm not sure about. A friend said I might have anxiety issues and might need to seek therapy and medication...Which again, I don't quite 100% agree with, due to the fact that I can calm myself down and pinpoint exactly what is going on...If I was truly panicking, I wouldn't have lucid moments. So, fellow kinksters. What is your input on this? Sorry to kind of make it long, but I felt to truly get a grasp, it might be better to give every side and every angle (I bet you didn't think I was a psych student once...:P) Thank you for your input~ ~R
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"Realizing I had a name-- Bec. It means "Little One". It's what Goll called me when he first found me. I was proud of the name. It was the only thing I owned, something nobody could ever take from me." The Demonata: vol 4 Bec.
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