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liminalRapture -> Happy (2/19/2012 3:23:30 PM)
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So, after several years and many mistakes, I think I've met someone that makes me really, truly happy.
It took a couple of experiences bad enough that I left the scene. Then the only man I thought could have been my Dom died, and I realized that I wouldn't have met him if I hadn't been here, so I came back to CM. But this time, I realized (finally!) that I had to take care of my submissive side, vigilantly, until I met someone I trusted enough that he would take better care of me than I would.
I had a huge number of men tell me I wasn't 'real' and I finally came to decide that any man who told me I wasn't 'real' was just doing me the great favor of telling me he wasn't safe. I started embracing the idea that I wasn't a 'real' submissive--I was just me.
Last weekend, I spent 5 days in another country with the man (I met here, although my friends think we met on OK Cupid) that not only believes I'm real--he loves that I have a side of me that can take care of myself and a side of me that will surrender unconditionally, and he embraces both sides. It will be hard because we currently live in 2 different countries. Thank heavens for Skype! But I am very, very very happy.
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