becca777
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She walks through the grocery aisle picking up the items she thinks she'll need for the week. A half gallon of milk, some fruit, fresh vegetables maybe a couple of steaks. Most of it would probably go to waste seeing that her appetite isn't what it used to be but she makes a valiant effort. Going through the motions of everyday life was what Julie was used to. Work...home...store on Thursdays...home...sleep... She still catches herself walking in the door at night half expecting to find him sitting there, newspaper in hand, and she still feels her heart drop after realizing he'll never be there again. Whoever said 'time heals all wounds' is partially right, but the scars that are left behind still pain at times. It's been a year tonight. She still dreams of the events. Waking up in a horror of cold sweat. Just like it was yesterday, talking to him on the phone, planning the 'special dinner' that he was going to ask her something important, the overwhelming joy filling her and remembering the jewelry catalog she found on his desk, the drop of his phone, the sound of screeching tires, the scream of the man she loved. It seemed like eternity before she realized he wasn't on the other end anymore. Pressing that off button on her phone was the hardest thing she ever had to do. Waiting, wondering, then another call. She still dreams of the way he used to touch her, the way he used to love her, the way she'd catch him looking at her as if he was staring into her soul. He'd buy her quirky gifts just because. Silly things that made no sense at all. She looks over and sees the button doll he'd picked up on one of his trips to Jamaica. Tears fill her eyes. How could she continue sleeping in the bed they made love in? How can she possibly go on with her life the way a normal 27 year old woman would? Lying back down she grabs his pillow and crushes it into her stomach, wrapping her body around it. She cries. She often woke a few times in the night for no reason, but that night something woke her. She bolted upright in her bed. That touch she was so familiar with. She felt it. It was more than just a dream. She smiled. Even if it were just a dream, the touch she craved for so long was as real as his pillow next to her. Sitting there, eyes closed she could feel the touch again...as if he were right there with her. The thin silk strap of her nightgown fell from her shoulder. She opened her eyes a bit startled and looked around. Was she losing her mind? Shaking her head a bit to see if she would actually wake up her breath caught as she felt the warmth of hands running along both of her arms. The second strap fell from her shoulder. Breathing harder now she wasn't sure what was happening. She didn't know what to do, what to think, whether she should run screaming from the house or stay there and see what happened next. She closed her eyes and felt a warm breath on the nape of her neck. A small gasp escaped her mouth. So familiar and so wonderful a feeling but so strange. She reached out almost expecting to feel his body there with her but she continued to reach.... 'Bobby? Are you here with me?'. A heat overwhelmed her lips and took her breath away for a moment. Oh god! It's him! But how! Oh, she didn't care at that moment. A dream, a ghost, she'd figure it all out later. She wanted this, she needed it, to feel him again even if she WAS losing her mind. Lying back, Julie extended her arms up over her head and clasped her hands together. She closed her eyes and felt his hands warming her neck, traveling down her body, over her breasts, her nipples hard as diamonds, gliding over her stomach to her sides and down over her hips. She opened her legs and took a deep breath. Feeling the same warmth there but wet her breathing picked up. She arched her back as she felt the sensations inside and outside of her body. Traveling all over it as she had remembered from times before. Bobby was very good at making her orgasm with just his tongue. And tonight was no exception. Sliding her hands down her body as if trailing after his she made her way down between her legs. Wanting to bury her fingers into his thick hair she felt nothing but herself and the warmth that was added to it. Feeling the ecstasy build inside, she was overwhelmed with everything and she let out a moan as she heightened to an orgasm that she hadn't had in over a year. As if everything had built up to that night, Julie arched her back and felt her body explode and pain with an aching desire that she began to cry. Breathing heavily and trying to calm herself, she looked around and wondered how much was actually real. She didn't care at that point. She laid down and with a smile she slept. The next morning, Julie arose early. Sunshine in her face from the window, she opened her eyes with a smile and began to remember the events from just a few hours ago. She could still feel his presence. Or at least she'd hoped. It was something to hang on to. As she climbed out of bed she turned to throw the covers up over her pillow and there it was. Her eyes widened and her body began to tremble and ache for him again as she reached down and picked up her little button doll that was sitting on his pillow.
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