subkit4u
Posts: 4
Joined: 2/23/2004 Status: offline
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I am not one for writting posts in this fashion, but I do have to express myself to all those who are "giving up" or who might be thinking about doing so. I had given up on finding someone in the lifestyle. I have been playing many years and only allowed few to Dominate me emotionally. I travel, I go to conventions and have friends all over the world. I have tried to be open finding someone who could rock my world, a total package. However, I couldn't find what I needed, or wanted. I don't submit easy nor let anyone in my head, out of play. Just by a fluke, not a play session, not a date, not a chat, I met someone from this site, who has.. for the short time I know him, touched me. And these feelings are so new and scary. Its not about the play, it's not about the sex...its about finding someone who can make you feel alive and special. Its being able to give and receive kindness and respect. Its about being human and having emotions and expressing them to each other. Its about laughter and being proud to walk with them (on his left, of course.) <g> I can submit be it "his slave"( jeez i never thought I would say that) or his submissive, or girlfriend, whatever. I am not sure where this will go, if it goes anywhere. I am scared of getting hurt, therefore I have a terrible realationship track record, and I am not a good submissive, but I am a woman who has needs, wants and feelings and although I might walk away from this Master or he may walk from me. I hope he will be a life long friend. He has not only given me love, lust and friendship he has shown me how much I do want to be a good slave, his...I will not give up searching, for if he exists maybe someone else out there will be there for me. Kisses to you Sir, and thank you for the gift of your friendship. I hope it can work out between us, and take it very slow. If it is in the stars to do so. It was an honor to be with you this past weekend and I hope you will find what you deserve... for you are way too special of a man a Dominate to be alone and not find someone who can give you what you deserve....... I did not mention his name, I did ask him if I may do so. You know who you are, and your are special. Kit
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