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fool -> Can't stand it any longer, thus reaching out.............. (6/12/2006 7:14:13 PM)
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I have alot to say and ask about, hopefully I can put it in a nutshell at first and
then go into some more detail if someone thinks they could shed some light on
my plight.
In my twenties I was involved in SM (note the SM and not BDSM) as a
"boy" to a "daddy." Never considered myself a submissive during that time as I am actually very aggressive and was so towards my girlfriends. But my top, hell ya,
would do anything she said and wanted to make her proud more then anything.
Anyhoo, I was out of the scene for several years and decided the time was right
to persue it again in the new city I moved into. And let me tell ya things are just
strange as hell and I don't know what is up or down or reality or my imagination or anything anymore.
For one thing, this is the 2nd dom in a row that has promised me the moon and stars upon first meeting pretty much. Who then several weeks later says basically
"nevermind." Without telling me how I messed it up!!!!
Yeah, they say the whole, "its not you, its me shit." But since it happened twice in a row now, I am beggining to wonder.
So, to keep this short, just hoping maybe someone can help me through this. I hate not understanding things.
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