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lilmissdefiant -> Bliss (9/27/2012 11:54:59 PM)
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I finally met my Owner yesterday, I'm up here for a week, at his expense. He is everything he said he was and I'm so glad I didn't back out.
We didn't jump right into the sack, didn't do that until the early hours of this morning actually. and when we did for me at least *FIREWORKS*
I was so worried leading up to this that I wouldn't be good enough, but now I'm here...well he has the ability to make me feel comfortable about being me, he has already helped me overcome some self esteem issues, he encourages me to be nobody else but myself.
Definitely the best Owner for me.
Last night we were in the court yard having a smoke and he was just touching and rubbing my face while talking soothingly to me. I wasn't in sub-space but it was complete serenity, the only words that were floating in my mind were "this is what submission is supposed to feel like, this is true submission" Just listening to his voice is calming...or frightening depending on what he's talking about or referring to [:D] Its enthralling regardless
Either way, choosing to have him in my life and following his lead and guidance is definitely the best decision I've made in a very very long time.
He makes every other Dom who's come at me seem like limp wristed, egotistical, immature, useless, undomly, weak as wet pieces of toilet paper, and wasters of my time and energy. and they were the good ones lols
But now I have the paramount best for me, its effortless. I am who I am and he admires me for it.
[:D][:D][:D][:D][:D][:D][:D]
will update tomorrow[:D][:D][:D][:D]
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