Is it that your desire is so flexible and sensitive that it can be inspired in radically different directions
|depending on the person?
The first part of your question fits me perfectly. It doesn't depend on the person though. I simply like and enjoy a lot of things. I can also find enjoyment in things I may not like the first time around by looking at it differently. Because of my ability to be flexible in that way, I find many aspects of both sides appealing. I love feeling powerless when someone is beating on me, and I love that sense of power that comes when someone is at my feet.
Is it that you are passionate about being whatever fits the situation best - Passionate and driven about being the puzzle piece that completes the image?
This is actually why I became a switch. I started as a sub, and especially as a bottom. My boy is submissive, generally, so I stepped in to fill the role that he desired. It's very helpful for us that he switches too, so all of our desires can be met with each other, as neither of us are big on the public scene or playing with others. That's all general though, I can and have played with others, it just feel different sometimes, if that makes sense.
Is it that you crave the diversity of being sought after for leadership, paired with the contrast of being driven towards service?
Not really in those terms, no. I am leader in that I know exactly how I want things to be done, and can lead others into doing them. On the other hand, I also see places where something is lacking and have a need to fill the lack, or to point it out, and find solutions for it. When something isn't working 100%, I want to do something about it, whether in a leadership role or a service role, it depends on what it is.
Do you have a standing preference as to whether you lead or follow and, if so, what makes holding onto the other 'side' worth it to you?
To be more clear, if you strongly prefer to follow/submit but continue to identify as a switch.
Why? Because you are a gifted leader? Or because the desire to lead, though not as strong, is still a real enough part of your person to require sating?
My very base love of BDSM is because I'm a masochist/bottom, so when you strip it down, I don't need to lead or follow, as long as I'm getting the beatings I desire. The enjoyment of both sides doesn't derive solely (or even mostly) from leading or following, but the energy that occurs when the dynamic is in place. That energy exists when I'm leading or following, so both work for me.