RaeRae39
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Dear Conflicted: I went through something very similiar as you. But, my {then} Master told me, it was part of the process. He told me some of the things, or as some people have said on here, baggage, of the past, it what molded me, made me who I am today, a submissive lady. We went through my history together. He wanted to know the details, how it was that I came to think like I do now. He even attributed to what had happened to me as early as childhood, teen, and then young adult, into acutally helping me form into the perfect submissive. He said some of these people {from my past} did the work for him. And he was right~! My need to serve has always been underlined in my life, and not just with my man, but it all things. I have always doted on family members, took care of my elderly grandparents when each one was sick and terminal, hell he even pointed out, I'm submissive to my daugter, which blew me away. In all honesty , I do alot for her, yes. Jesus, who knows maybe we are hard wired after all? And I so relate to having to be tough. I grew up in a really rough city, so it was eat or get eaten. I fought physically too, I had too! Do you know that made me look dominant to men? I was forced into the role, it was not who I was. I ended up in my younger years dating alot of men who wanted me to take charge, it was their perception of me. It certainly wasn't true. But, my old master would not tolerate having to tell me I looked good or anything. He said, hey, I told you once that should be it. I must tell you, I met a wonderful new Dominant/Master on this site~! He is everything I could have ever wanted, and I'm am privileged to have him. Perhaps life takes us on this journey, and when you least suspect it, out of nowhere, comes someone into your life that fits you perfectly. I hope this is what you have. And don't worry, your going through regular stuff. Just remember to take care of your master and trust him~! Rae Something my old master didn't tolerate
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