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BoundtoMD -> Bondage is true love. But how? (1/7/2013 4:04:09 PM)
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Hello everyone. I am a 24 year old student-doctor who has realized that he definitely has an inclination to bondage and BDSM. I am unsure of when I developed these ambitions, but I feel like they were developed at an early age (13 years old). The strange thing is that I was raised in a stable, happy household. At first, I thought I was just strange, but after several unsatisfying vanilla relationships, I have identified the void in my life. To me there is something intrinsically appealing about relationships where power is exchanged. To love someone for me, is an asymmetrical exchange of power. Not only do you protect, guide, and provide for, the one you love should obey, respect, and sacrifice for your wishes.
The very idea of a loving relationship between two people who desire to equal control in each others lives seems dysfunctional. Human nature is hierarchical - power is given in exchange for security and guidance. From the classical Greek model of the mentor-mentee bond to modern professional relationships such as attorney-client or even physician-patient, an imbalance of power is ubiquitously present. Even in the lower life-forms, power is exchanged subconsciously. There is no second alpha in a pack of dogs. The intimacy of one submitting in private to another who then justly distributes affection, care, and occasional discipline is simply appealing.
This willing imbalance of power was that which was missing in my previous relationships. Likewise, I don't believe that true bondage can be practiced just in the bedroom. It has to be a lifestyle thing - one that does not need to be publicly obvious, but acknowledged between the parties in private. The intent in love is never to publicly humiliate and dominate. The intimacy of one submitting in private to another who then justly distributes affection, care, and occasional discipline is just so appealing. The trouble with me is - I don't know how to get started in something like this.
At least I have one side of the equation right - I am pursuing medicine at a top-rated medical school. I am in love with the field of medicine I desire to go into. The very nature of its competitiveness is what led me to it. The road is arduous and there are many narrow hoops to jump through - but I will persevere. When things seem difficult, I motivate myself, knowing that one day I could be worthy of becoming a master. Because then, I can provide, protect, love, and discipline. The problem then, I hope, will be finding someone worthy enough to partake in my love. The willing subservience of my submissive will be the sacrifice in exchange for the total care I will provide for her.
But how do I explore these types of relationships? I look online, but my searches are fruitless. How did you guys get started? It is so hard to approach these topics with women when you are training for such a professional field. I would love some tips on how to get involved so that I can start finding my soulmate.
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