sskitten
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Ok, while we are piecing together the story, here is more of it, shared by the OP herself when she launched two other threads in recent weeks. She started her first sub relationship four years ago, and she recently discovered her latest Master was going behind her back to find more subs/playmates.
June 9
http://www.collarchat.com/m_418046/mpage_1/key_/tm.htm#418046
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Words that woke your soul to D/s? Share
Question: (I'm sure it's been posted before, but hey, there are newbies and established that still might want to share?)
What was the first word or visual that you saw/heard...that began your exploration into D/s?
Mine: I was at a keyboard working, a male friend simply whispered into my vanilla ears 4 years ago, "Wear heels to work tomorrow." Next day, I wore them thinking it was a game. It was no game....Collared 6 months later.
June 2
http://www.collarchat.com/m_401036/mpage_1/key_/tm.htm#401036
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I could really use a Master's advice
I can only imagine how many emails you get like the one I'm posting.
Obviously, my story very much the same as some I've just read.
I began submitting to a Dominant. The hard limits: One-on-one relationship and honesty. Meaning, he would tell me if he wanted something or someone else.
He bought me a cell phone so he could have access to me at all times. He was always a gentleman. Always kind. Claimed he had "found what he was looking for and stopped his search!"
I submitted more of my body, mind and soul...out of affection and caring. He called daily, we saw eachother twice a week most of the time...5 months.
He would tell me, "I'm thinking of you way too much...I miss you, I need you....I adore you...."
Last night, I discovered...he was secretly seeking more subs/playmates. He has NO idea I discovered this. I was shocked, hurt, and anyother kind of emotion one can think of came over me.
I asked him shortly after..."Are you needing to move on ....?" He replied, "What are YOU doing up so late?" He WILL NOT ANSWER MY question.....which is "DO YOU NEED TO MOVE ON??"
Why can't he just say, "Yeah, I need more...move on, release, go..."???
What do you respond when you've submitted your affection, loyality and body to a Master who won't be honest with you?
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[more posts from later in the thread]
great idea...and I think it's time for my pic to go up as well...(smiles...what have I got to hide? Nothing!) My profile isn't filled out yet, but you've inspired me! (Time for this sub to take control of finding someone worthy, right?)
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lol red...i understand...i too probably still have a lot to learn about what being 'submissive' really means...as far as making better choices. As far as me being the coward...dunno---to me, a huge part says, "Ya know, if someone is that low....maybe they deserve nothing..not even my typing on an email...!) And, I cut off the cell phone he gave me...and it will remain off...don't feel he's even worth answering the phone for. Call it cowardly...? Maybe...I sorta feel empowered as if "You aren't worth my breath anymore"
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So true passionate....as I read your post..I began to deflate a bit...as a submissive, I tend to only 'hear' what I want to hear. It tugs, it pulls...and my only drawback is even allowing him the satisfaction of 'hearing' my voice. To me, a person who openly lies to me once...isn't worth or should not be honored enough to ever 'hear' my voice on the phone..and definitely NOT in person./or via email. He has his toys...he can go play. I will remain true to myself first, not him...nor give him the opportunity to attempt to pull me anywhere.
By the way, here's one of two posts Irish made on the Two Worlds of Trust thread I started, June 9
http://www.collarchat.com/m_417509/mpage_2/key_/tm.htm#418017
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So many insights into D/s...cheating, etc. I have read the posts, concur and respect many opinions.
However, they are opinions. I will not judge another based on something as fragile as marriage and decisions based on family. Each relationship, each situation is completely different from another. Just because you are a sub or Dom, does not make you held to a 'higher moral standard' than any vanilla, etc. Vanillas and D/s relationships face the same challenges....When a person is ready to speak openly with their spouse, then that is their choice. To each his/her own. Live and let live.
Submitted Respectfully to those who are "stuck" and respectfully to those making choices, and those who have already made their own personal choice in regard to their "situation'. Best wishes.
Irish
< Message edited by sskitten -- 6/24/2006 9:06:14 PM >
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RE: He used my pic to find bi-women secretly - 
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