LittleGirlHeart
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im ike you when manic, the pc is a godsend cuz i can do 40 million diff things on the pc an i jump from window to window an soon i have 200 windows open, litteally
That's just it, i often wonder what are the meds supposed to do, or are doing because i do not feel different, i feel me. i am usually a very happy and loving and reasonable person, an the meds don't do that , it's me naturally. but take me off the meds and in 9 months usually ish slowly very slowly the symtoms come back. The easily aggitated, the restless, the unable to focus, the racing thoughts. the manias the depressions the desires to hurt myself. the inability to control my emotions.
And this last time, holy fuck, it was the worst it's ever been i actually felt well i cant say pychotic cuz i;ve never been pychotic, but surely it must have been close to it. it was bad. I have never wanted to hurt James when i am off my meds, and some bad , bad impulse told me if he did not get away from me i should spring at him and attack him. He was only trying to talk to me and sooth me which normally I need. I felt like my skin wanted to split open and my skeleton run away. I was moments away from going pycho on someone the next person who pissed me off. of throwing things and screaming and trashing the room and maybe, maybe even trying to hurt myself and do serious damage. and most certainly security having to come throw me on the floor an sit on me. and i was out of control over my own emotions i knew id fight and bite them and buck, because way back when i was a kid and i had to be restrained, it took 7 ppl to hold me down.
i so did not want that* shudders*
so, yeah in comparison to that. and the 1 other time stopping my meds led to a pych hospital stay i know what they do, i don't see adifference. i feel happy and content and well adjusted as usual.
I also do not have any better energy or motivation or focus, which they're supposed to help.
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ORIGINAL: PheonixRose
ok i know for me the anxiety feeds off of my bipolar and visa versa that is why i am on vistaril and geodon. I like you wasnt diagnosed bipolar for the longest time till i went inpatient at a mental health hospital. it also took me moving to kansas to get properly treated now all is well.
im diagnosed ptsd and bipolar. my mania feels alot like im in an adhd fit like i cant sit still and even if i do sit still i am constantly changing what im doing like i sit on my computer and constantly change the website im on and bounce between my homework and such.
i suggest that you look up all of what you have been told is possible diagnosis and see what fits then discuss your point of view due to your research and see what happens from there. one thing i have to say is if you dont feel different after about a month or so on a new med then tell your DR immediately and get them changed.
it may take a bit but after some time and trying different combinations you will find what works for you.
knowing what sets off your anxiety is a good thing it will help you regulate everything. i know i deal with anxiety and my bipolar is mostly mania but without warning i can bottom out and feel worthless and go to the depressed side.
as for my experience my anxiety and mania bipolar go hand in hand for the most part.
any questions hon just send me a message through Cmail.
< Message edited by LittleGirlHeart -- 11/15/2013 7:12:42 PM >
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