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kinkypoet3 -> I felt like a failure (6/28/2015 4:03:27 AM)
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My head was all over the place
I felt like a failure
I wanted to provide for my family
But I wasn't able to contribute
I wasn't bringing in any money
The business was failing
The bailiff was banging on the door
My dad was at breaking point
He had put everything into the shop
But the rug was about to be pulled from under us
We were fighting to stay alive
And I knew it was time to abandon ship
But I had to stay and fight
And I felt like a failure
Because I could do nothing
Just watch this ship go downWading knee seep
Watching everything fall apart
And you were the strong one
I left you to pay the bills
You were paying the mortgage and the council tax
You were paying the utility bills and paying for the food
I know it mist have looked as if I didn't careI never wanted to go anywhere
But it was only because. I knew that I couldn't pay
And I felt like a failure
Because I wanted to take you places
And I know I seemed not to care
When all I wanted to do in bed was go to sleep
But all of the time my mind was in turmoil
Worrying about the future
But I didn't dare talk to you about it
So I kept it all bottled up inside
Bottled up tight
I regret that now
And I regret that I didn't talk to you
I felt like a failure
Because I was brought up to believe
That a man should provide for his family
And I wasn't able to provide for mine
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