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What do I get out of being a Dom? - 4/27/2016 11:42:55 AM

darkmagicuk

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I’ve been asked a few times and it’s one thing that I struggle with answering, I guess I still have issues coming to terms with the kind of “Monster” I’ve become. That is how I would see myself If I viewed myself from the outside, I’d see a monster. The things I have starting enjoying now 20 years ago would have shocked me, I’ve grown, developed into the Dom I am now and I think is because I have grown and developed as a person as well, I feel I’m now happy and content with me and who I am now.

I’ve not changed (I don’t think) I’ve just allowed the real me to surface. The chains finally taken off and I'm allowed to run free, but I still fear it, the urges I have, the dark thoughts……………is that really me?

I’ve been accused of having no social flitter but you see I have been trapped for so long, conforming and following society, I feel like someone coming out of years of solitude and I want to be with people. If I want to say something I tend to just say it, I find dieting hard cause if I want to eat something I tend to just go and eat it, my craving are fed and never starved (as they have for so many years in the past).

So what do I get out of it?

First what do I like?

I like to learn stuff, learn about my sub, learn what she likes, dislikes, which buttons to push to get different reactions.

I like to look down and see my sub at my feet, content, happy and safe, my hand in her hair, stroking her.

Yet equally I like a Belt/Flogger/Paddle/Cane in my hand, the marks they leave, the sounds she makes, the reaction I get.

That look in her eyes that tell me she wants me, but more important that she is mine, fully, totally and unconditionally.

That look that tells me she trusts me fully and wholeheartedly, with her body and more important her mind.

I crave order, taking the chaos of life and trying to put reins on it and try to put some control around this crazy world.

I like giving sensations, pain, fear, pleasure, contentment, happiness. I like to tease and torment.

I love the feeling that I have given someone a special moment, a feeling, a sensation taken them a step further in their own exploration.

I love trying something new, exploring something different, and the buzz of the freshness.

I love seeing her there afterwards, her body spent, exhausted, weakened, yet feeling safe knowing she has my strong arms to protect her, hold her and caress her till she can walk and talk again.

What do I get out of being a Dom? I get to feel alive with every cell in my body