bostonpolarbear
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This is going to be long. I think I need to give details about what is the background for this in order to understand my problem. I have been looking for a gay male slave to serve me for a long time with little success. I have found online slaves, but there is a limit to how far such a relationship can go without being able to meet and be together in person. Many years ago I did find one boy who very much wanted to be my slave. In fact, the first time we contacted each other, he drove about 2 hours that evening to meet me. Things went very well, but over about 6 months he became less and less able to see me because of family (his parents) and job commitments -- and *sigh* the weather. We meet in winter and then for about 4 months in snow 2-3 weekends every month. I ended it because we could not establish a foundation for a relationship because his responsibilities to his parents grew too great. I contacted him about a year ago and he told me he is overwhelmed now with those responsibly and has no time for any relationship and is celibate because he cannot get hard or come unless told so by a Master. I mention this so that it is clear I have had a slave before. I want to meet with a slave so I can interview him (and he can also interview me) and so we can see if we related to each other. I CANNOT EVEN GET THAT FAR. (Yes, all capitals, because I am so very frustrated.) The problem I have been having -- even before I meet him -- was that a boy and I would be in contact, usually be email or other ways, we would talk for days or a few weeks, we would agree to meet -- and then the boy would not show. Then I would be ghosted my them; sometimes (at first) I did try to contact them, but they never would reply and I just stopped try. MY GUESS with such boys is that the *believe* they are slaves -- but they are not -- or, I feel, they have *not* fully accepted they are and when it comes to actually meeting, they aren't ready and do not come. Or maybe some of them are just assholes and playing a game. This is so fucking frustrating. I joined one BDSM meet site in August and within about a month I had 10-12 (I lost count). We talked, arranged to meet, and they never showed up to meet and I was ghosted by ALL of them. (Well, there was one who I figured out was a very twisted scammer. The other... with the other we chatted for about 2 weeks, talked on the phone, he was extremely interested in serving me as his Master (he has been a slave before), I told him to contact me the night before we were to meet, he did; the following day about 2 hours before we were to meet he called and said he needed an extra hour and if that was acceptable, it was. 4 hours later he had NOT shown up and I get an email from him saying "It isn't you, it's me. I need a Mistress and not a Master, sorry." THAT is the closest I have come in about 10 years now. Last week I had a boy contact me by replying to 3 emails I had send him several months ago (he was one of the ones who stood me up). He wrote in each of the emails, "Hey, Master [ABC]." I did not remember who he was so he sent me a photo and told me where we had first made contact -- and I remember who we was. I wrote back saying I remember he stood me up, he did not answer when I tried to contact him -- and, yes, I was still interested in his being my slave and what was he looking for as he contact me again. AND... he never replied. I have potential slaves tell me that want nothing more that to obey and serve a Master -- but then they ask if I am going to do this or that. You say you wanted nothing more then to obey and serve -- BUT you are asking for details about that? You have Limits -- what I could do is everything or anything that is not one of your Limits. They seem to want me to make up a LIST of everything I will want them to do! They want to know exactly what will happen when they meet me. I tell them they will strip naked once the enter my apartment and kneel in front of me and we will talk to interview each other. I will likely give them some tests of obedience -- which they want to do, but, hello! TESTS. I want to see how you react to test your potential as a slave without you being able to plan ahead. I tell them I cannot plan in detail what exactly will happen *because* that depends on what is said when we speak in person and how our interview goes. (For and after talking with him a short time, I told him he was a sub, not a slave (which he then realized) and thank you, good-bye.) Here, just within the last few days, I contact a boy who seemed to be truly a slave, who said he believe completely in slavery and need to serve and obey. He replied he was interested, and I wrote him again in more detail about what I would expect *in general* and that I wanted us to meet soon, in person, so we could have a face-to-face discussion/interview. (I said I wanted this soon because 1) I did not want our first meeting to interfere with the holidays, and because, 2) I have had too many boys drag things out for weeks and I realize they have no intention of meeting. And he wrote back, "I don't think this would work." So I wrote back basically "Why? Tell me *why* so I can understand and learn." I doubt he will reply. What am I doing wrong??? If a boy is interested in being a slave, WHAT is he looking for when a Master replies to him? Because when I write back whatever I am saying seems to make the boy not interested in me. (You can read my profile here and see that I have a lot of detail in it of the type of slave I am looking for, what I expect at the start, and who I am as a person. But, truly, WHAT is a boy wanting to here from a Master when the Master replies to him, telling him he wants the boy to be his slave??? I mean, meeting and interviewing seems reasonable to me. (I have read a LOT on BDSM and on Master/slave relationships and this is suggested!) But I cannot even get to that point. Seriously, please, I want to know what a slave is looking for when a Master responds at the very start of communications between them. Because I seem to keep fucking it up. Thanks to all. . . .
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