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Greta75 -> RE: What Dominants do for me (12/23/2016 7:52:57 PM)
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What I enjoy is completely losing control my body to someone. I love feeling helpless. I love a dominant who can seriously play with my body like an instrument he is really good at and manipulate it to react at his will, in a way like wrestling of my body away from me.
So actually although I have never experienced this before, but if a dominant could make me cum from verbal commands, I think that would be amazing. But clearly it takes training and haven't really had one who is committed to work it to that stage.
As for the psychological side of it. I just like being second in command to somebody who i admire and respect and adore. I hate leading. I want someone to lead in our family nucleus. And I want to be his most valuable assistant.
But if I rationalise everything. I was never safe by the ones who were suppose to protect me and lead me. Aka my parents. They were my abusers.
So for me, it's extremely intoxicating to be able feel safe with someone on the level, where I can be completely helpless and under his control, and knowing he would never harm me.
I boil everything down to a need to feel completely safe with someone.
I cannot experience this with a vanilla, because, I need the person to have dark needs and to be able to regulate and control his own dark needs to not harm me with it.
It's like, I love the feeling of feeling safe with a wild full grown tiger or lion. Knowing it is dangerous but it won't eat me up. And honestly, I will probably be one of those idiots who think wild animals are safe. And won't be surprise if that's how I die some day. If I disappeared from this forum, and ya see in the news Chinese girl got eaten up by some wild animals. That's probably me.
Because that's one of my biggest fantasies. Not to be eaten by a wild tiger or lion, but to be able to interact and touch a wild tiger or lion and not get eaten up. But to make that dream come true. Comes with huge risks.
BUT I will probably be eaten or killed in the process. But also, I am totally unafraid and reckless like that, even with dogs, when they are viscious growling and barking at me, I move forward and touch them, I put my hands through people's gates to touch their hostile huge guard dogs, whenever I am in the mountains, any wild animal I see, I walk towards them, and try to touch them. Most of the time, they will run away. I will never blame the animal. If they reject me, they reject me. I understand and I know the risks.
There is this venomous snake who's venom could kill you in 1.5 hours that I saw in my hikes, that was jumping and hissing at me. I just walked towards it, and got closer and closer, talking to it and it got more and more piss off at me. In the end, it just slithered away. And my friends think I am fucking crazy. But that's me. I rather die by an animal than by disease.
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