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Erusvi -> RE: When was the First? (7/29/2006 11:21:46 PM)
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I am currently in the third year of my first and only 24/7 d/s relationship. My last relationship, a ten year marriage, had gone awry. I was in a position in redefine my life. I was always drawn to allure of the d/s dynamic, but honestly, I was quite terrified by the reality of it. I mean, after all, it's a lot of work. You have to be 'on' all the time. There's all of these rules and protocols to follow. You don't get to be goofy and silly and other stuff that makes relationships fun.
I spent several months testing the waters with different girls. None of them fit. They were each looking for something different, and all willing to pay for it with their submission. That's not what I was looking for. I wanted someone who didn't see submission as currency. I wanted someone who genuinely revelled in their submission, to their own joy and fulfillment.
I found it in the girl who now wears my collar. She was a regular at one of the BDSM clubs here in LA. We crossed paths there, but she was claimed by someone else. Yet, there was such a vivid electricity between us, that secret, unspoken desire to dive into one another. As Fate would have it, we ended up at a play party one night. Her other was off playing with some girls and left Marriah in my care.
The moment that I knew she was the one came then. She looked up at me, her eyes heralding the simple honesty of her words as she said, "use me".
I was sold... and I still am.
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