pandoravampire -> how to stay submissive when the sap is rising? (12/10/2004 7:09:46 AM)
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Hello everyone, i have a question that other switches may have possible solutions to. This weekend, im to meet with my Dom. We have 3 days together, no work, no kids, just perfect. This is the issue. Im day 9 of my menstrual cycle. My libido is through the roof! and im not feeling submissive, i want to top, and i want to top bad! Im only 3 months into this D/s relationship. Prior to this, ive only ever been with a switch, or a submissive. This is my first experience in submitting. Finding someone credible for me as a Dom, has taken years. In all that time, there has only been 2 people i would offer my submission to. So its a rare opportunity that is unlikely to come along again. I do not want to blow it. He knows i am a switch, but does not have any switching tendencies himself. We are monogamous, and so other partners are not involved for play. This does seem to be the normal route of expression when a switch is subbing, to take a sub for themselves. Problems occurred during a telephone conversation tonight. Due to my not feeling submissive and giving the incorrect responses to questions about the possibility of him using orgasm denial this weekend. Topping from the bottom, is never a good idea. But seriously, who in their right mind, would suggest to a person who's libido is gonna make them internally combust if not addressed, that this is a possibility? I feel that i would be set to fail in my submission. I would try of course. But this time of the month is difficult for me to control. The reason why im good at being 'his slut' is because i AM a slut. The reason i like to have him do despicable things to my body and mind, is because i adore it. I cant get enough of it. And that is not very submissive. How do others control their needs when submitting to others? Im only 3 months into this submission and so have very little experience of this. We are not 24/7, mainly in the bedroom, with a little leakage outside. This i find helps as my personality is definately not submissive. Any suggestions would be welcome PandoraVampire
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