LaTigresse
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Joined: 1/15/2006 Status: offline
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Oh good grief!!! I could fill the whole collarme server with this one! I wouldn't even know where to start. I will hit a few subjects of the first that come to mind. I despise all organised religiouns I have seen so far. I have been known to buy icky ready to bake choc chip cookie dough to eat right out of the tube when I am an emotional wreck inside. I don't allow people to see that I am an emotional wreck inside. I can be very cold and unfeeling to people I love that have betrayed me deeply. It is an ability to shut off all feelings for them that scares others and even me sometimes. Example, I feel nothing at all for my mother, no love, no hate......nothing. I have never known a love deep and strong enough to show my whole self to. I got pregnant the first time I had sex, age 16. My son is now 27 and that scares alot of sub/slaves that are attracted to me. I am married to a totally conservative vanilla man that thinks BDSM is just sick and wrong. We are good friends and companions, have had okay sex in the past, almost none (once or twice) in the last year. If I could afford it without destroying both of us financially I would not be. And yes, he does know. And yes, its not always a comfortable way to live. Yes I feel guilty alot and yes I wish I could change who I am sometimes. I keep that to myself because I am afraid of sypathy not judgement. I believe we chose our life paths because there is a lesson we needed to learn from it. When I was a single parent of age 26,I was so exhausted I allowed myself to believe the bullshit of an older married man I trusted and had an affair with him behind his wifes back. I believed his bullshit because I thought I wanted to be taken care of for once. Then I saw an interview with Bette Davis on Phil Donahue about married men. I ended the relationship that day and have regreted that lapse in judgement ever since. My first lesbian sex was 8 years ago with a very aggressive 21 year old. She totally rocked my world and also introduced me to BDSM. Okayyyyyyy, enough confessing for one day. edited to add......my appologies for the horrid long list.........it was prolly wayyyyyyyyy tmi
< Message edited by LaTigresse -- 8/5/2006 8:35:09 AM >
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My twisted, self deprecating, sense of humour, finds alot to laugh about, in your lack of one! Just because you are well educated, articulate, and can use big, fancy words, properly........does not mean you are right!
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