sleazybutterfly
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Today I have been thinking a lot. The sub/slave part of me, is fighting a bit with the Top in me. Can I give up the thought of not Topping ever again? Can I give that much control over to one person in my life, after everything that has happened? Is it worth it, if I am happy otherwise? I remember the days in the beginning, I had this huge desire to serve. It seems like over the year, it's faultered a bit. I think it's just because of the way that need was abused by others, I have become slightly jaded. Is it possible to get that back after losing it? If so, how can I do it? ~Butterfly
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~Flutterby ~Curvylicious Just when the caterpillar thought the world was over, she became a butterfly. Life is not a popularity contest, it's better to be hated for what you believe, than loved for a lie.
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