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ORIGINAL: LeatherBentOne

I started out as a sub but it took me 4 years to realise that I'm Dominant after much soul searching and celibacy because I didn't want my hormones to dictate, and I wanted to be sure that I was doing so for all the right reasons.  I felt it wasn't fair to another person to make them the recipient of any of my personal issues or baggage that I might bring into the relationship therefore casual play didn't enter the picture as I didn't want to mislead anyone regarding my leanings.  I wanted to be as sure and as true to myself and others as I could possibly be.

I realise that life is a process and ever-changing but I found, first and foremost, it was to everyone's advantage that I be true to myself and them.  I didn't want to fulfill my immediate desires at someone else's expense.  In my mind, this would have made me a user in that I wasn't considering the impact my leanings would have on others.