Tbelle -> subspace or just fantasy land? (2/17/2005 9:20:58 AM)
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not totally sure how to word this, so please forgive my awkwardness. The other night Sir did something to me that has left me in what feels like a limbo, I can't really focuus on anything but all my senses are heightened to a new level- see what I mean about my inabaility to make sense?- anyway, using the edge of the paddle he traced it accross my back, obviously it wasn't sharp but a rough edge did scratch a little and from that moment I disappeared from the reality of that moment and went into my mind. I've been reading loads lately about brandings, cuttings, knife/ blood play purely out of morbid curisoity, the idea would be a limit for me, a hard one, or so I thought, but I now seem preoccupied with the thought and am spending far too much time online reading about it all. So my question is this, have I found 'sub space', am I dancing with a fantasy that invaded my head space at that moment and has nothing to do with what was actually happening or is it just my subconscious playing tricks after heavy bedtime reading ?. This may sound way off, but it has confused me grately and I don't feel able to talk to Sir about it indepth until I understand it more myself. Thank you for you time, belle xx
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