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ORIGINAL: myobedience

Emotionally abandonment is the worst !!
 
 
This only happens if you have allowed it to or predetermined in your mind that this is what you wanted to happen. Nothing happens without your say so. If you are fearful all the time of something happening then it will come to be...plain and simple. We attract what We project as an image based on Our constant thoughts...regardless of subbie or dom.
 
So it happens to you....you can not control it as it is beyond your ability...what do you do next? Do you abandon all hope of ever dating? Do you get back on the horse again?  you may not be able to control what happens to you but you can control how you react to it...either positively or negatively. this is not directed at you personally but in women in this position of mindset.
 
Life is what goes on as you are planning it...
 

Being told to find another to play with, then being rejected, never being told how pleased he was with me that I was so obedient and that he preferred her over me.
 
Life goes on within and without you...so you never were rejected for a job? Ever get someone like your best friend picked over you ?
A lot of women initially tell a dom that they will find another woman to join them but have such an insecurity with their self image that they defeat themselves.
 
So would it make you feel any better if a dom went to a bar and found someone on his own while you were sitting on your hands?
 
 

Carrying on a 4 month relationship at the same time he still demanded my obedience to his kinky self absorbed sexual wonton lustful fetishes.
Not just once...... 
 
So this is something that was not discussed and defined beforehand or into the relationship or was it simply ignnored and taken as law? Seemingly innocent behaviour may actually be the tip of the iceberg of more underlying self distructive behaviour.
 
Sounds like there was a difference in the overall goals on the relationship.

I just love it when a female subbie gets all out of whack when male doms persue the sexual, sensual, hedonistic, lustful, physical side of a relationship after the subbie has projected just that in her profile.
 
Window shopping doms and subbies need to be more direct on their advertising...yes plain and simple it is advertising...selling..selling of your ideas, thoughts, hopes, dreams to others in search of the oneness with another.
 
Moving as one motion is not in the physical sense of copulation but of that of mental discorse..mental copulation...
 
Fear can motivate or fear can kill the very sprit and soul. 
 
one reeps what one allows to mature..it must be something that you feel must come to pass as you have already made up your mind thaqt you are not worthy of it....or are you?
 
 Fear can create a victim complex and keep one crippled a long time.
 
one allows the fear of the unkown to cripple them as they want to be the victim...allowing someone else to take responsibility for what they lack...discipline.
 
Ever notice how so many rude people feel they are empowered when they enter a store and decide to berate a sales accociate when they would not do that on the street? What allows them to get away with the social ineptness is the money greed factor as they feel there are many managers and store managers that will do anything for their customers money simply so they can achieve thier quota.
 
Ruling by fear has taken hold of the world...instead of acting civil and treating everone the way they would like to be treated ...in the land of instant emails, messages, cell phones, they flip them off, claw to the top for what?
 
REMEMBER HOW EVERYONE TREATED EACH OTHER AFTER THE 911?
 
That sure lasted a few couple of sweet weeks.
 
 
 Or fear can be changed to something positive and move on....
 
Feel the fear yet do it anyway...empower yourself...do not let your fears and inadiquacies take you hostage...

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ORIGINAL: BlackSakura

Falling in love with Him..[:o]

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ORIGINAL: slavelynn

Master finding a more experienced slave and releasing me.  

Yes I can see this happeneing because based on your profile you lack some very apparent things....
 
While you may excel in photography your fine dining skills may suck...that is most suitable for immediate dismissal.
 
So what happens if the tables were turned?
 
What if the sky fell?
 
WHAT IF.....?
 
you can what if things to death and meanwhile life will pass you by

I fear this everyday and when it is obvious to him he gets upset and says " that this is forever and I don't want to have to keep explaining this to you"  I just can't over come this fear though

Nothing is forever....despite our best intentions...
 
The road to hell is paved with good intentions (and a few people I know [image]http://www.collarchat.com/micons/m10.gif[/image])
 
If you do not start believing in yourself then he is going to start believing you...
 
Ever try not to think about remembering not to forget to breathe?
 
Try it...
 
Get with the game kid and make something of yourself...you do not need to be fighting yourself for your right to happiness....

Ross
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ORIGINAL: SirDiscipliner69

As a submissive what is your biggest fear real or otherwise?

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I'm really terrified of camel crickets.

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ORIGINAL: SirDiscipliner69

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ORIGINAL: daddysprop247



it wouldn't be merely sad, it'd be utterly devastating, as he is my sole purpose for being. as it says in my profile, he is my life...so without him, there would be no more life. yes, i'm sure he would want me to go on, remember him and honor him, and serve with devotion the one i had been willed to. which is what i would do, assuming that i had the strength and will power not to follow him to the grave.

I am sure if he is aware of your postings he will reenforce this with you in his guidance

then again, that could give me an opportunity to live out one of my darkest, most perverse fantasies....being used and abused by 3 or 4 sadistic-minded Dominants, in various cruel ways, ultimately resulting in my very slow and painful death.

Well just shy of a very slow and painful death perhaps he might submit you to My hand down at the crucible some time for all to watch just how cruel I can be...as I might as well live up to all the hearsay now shouldn't I? [image]http://www.collarchat.com/micons/m10.gif[/image]
 
I wonder just how many sams, bottoms, subs would want the same thing as you described if they knew it would take them safely just to the point of death but no harm.
 
Ross
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