It was something more than masochism, just very unique in being a bottom and top at the same time. Another off the wall example: One time I was being a top physically with her, while she was verbally being a top. I had no urge to even try to gag her mouth, because verbally she was turning me on. We were very sarcastic with each other, and the use of come back lines was always intense. Instead of giving direct orders, we simply dished out dares, threats, insults or otherwise pressed each others buttons. Sometimes, one of us would simply tease the other. Something which strikes me is how well, we would read each others body language, and we attuned to tone of voice.
Here's an example of body language and voice. This was the start of playing watersports together, without talking about it.
We were talking a shower together and I needed to go take a piss. I started to leave the shower, and she asked what I was doing. I said going to take a piss. She said just piss here (meaning in the shower). I turned around and looked up and down her body with my eyes (thinking wicked thoughts about unleashing it on her), I knew she had been watching my eyes, reading me. Our eyes locked together in a deep stare, and I had a wicked grin on my face and she had one on her face as well. That's all it took! It was only a matter of time before she would return the favor on me.
One of the rules we always seemed to followed was; "Do unto others was you would have them do unto you!", or an "eye for an eye" and other cliches alike.
A mutal friends of ours at the time was simply amazed that she allowed me to do the things I did to her, and vice versa. Because normall she the Dominate type, which would literally grab a guy by the balls and squeezed and dig in with her fingernails if somebody tried to force her to do something. She in short allowed me to do things to her which she normally did not let other men do. The same can be said with me, I allowed her to do things to me which I normally don't let be done to me.
Did either one of us sumbit to the other, always and yet never! Both her and I submitted to each other, but not in the typical sense. Strange to submit without submitting. Her and I both would try to play around with each other limits, and I just don't mean sexual ones. But it was done using enticement and seduction, instead of using orders and commands. Sure we would use commands to tell each other what to do at times. Sometimes, we'd play games on words. For example, she could be verbally dishing out humilation and I'd tell turn around and bend over. She would not comply right away, instead, she would keep provoking me, and then I would insult her, by telling her she was too scared to turn around and could not handle it anyways. If she turned around and complied, she got it. If not it was just a matter of time before, I turned her around with force and bent her over. Then when I done doing what I did, she would attack me phyiscally in return, asking if I got off good doing what I was doing.. and she's procede to have her way with me. It was always a challenge and fun trying to get each other to do things, slowly driving each other crazy. Sometimes, if one of us broke down to take the TOP postion full force, it meant we were the looser in a sense because we gave into our Animal instinct. So being on the TOP was like being on the Bottom at the same time. Please undertand, that I was free to do whatever while being on top in this example, however it felt like the bottom at the same time, just because of everything verbally which had happened. There are examples, where I drove her mad and got her to point of literally raping the hell out me, and then I found myself raping her back.
So the Top was the top yet the bottom at the same time, and the Bottom was the bottom yet the top at the same time. One big blur, we submited to each other but not under the normal terms and conditions you'd expect with submission.
I wonder if there are other people out there which have had similar experiences.