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onestandingstill -> RE: virgin rapture (3/31/2007 5:23:39 AM)
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Many of us when we awaken the sleeping sub inside want to learn all we can from every avenue and source we can get our hands in.
I felt like I made sense to me and what was missing from my life came home all in one big thump.
Most people recommend you not committing to a collar or mated relationship in the first year of your new life.
In that time you run like a freight train in your mind as you consider all this new knowledge, energy, and sensation.
In your first year you will change your mind often about yourself and your limits.
You'll find things you feel you'll never understand are things you enjoy and things you think are nifty sweet are bitter pills sometimes.
The term sub frenzy really describes the driving force to cut loose and run with all your heart with all the trust of a new puppy.
You'll make mistakes, you'll have incredible Epiphanies, and over all you'll flex and bend as you grow just like the rest of us.
I guess after the first year you have such a better base of who you are and what works for you that you sort of get a more tunnel visioned focus and view.
The delighted kid looking through Macy's window at Christmas in NY for the first time, vs when you've done it about six times before would be a good metaphor for the way it sort of feels when the sub frenzy wears off.
Both are good, both bring wonder and self awareness, one just is in overdrive and starving and the other's cruising along eating lunch.
Good luck in your journey.
suzanne
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