Sirandlittle1
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We have recently been through a tough patch. When lifes curve balls come too thick n fast. During the height of all that angst. We began to go down. The moment we sloped downwardly, i stopped going into subspace. I saw that as a protective thing. I did not feel confident any longer, to let go that much. Which is a shame, as it probably would of been very soothing for us. To exchange power to that intensity. So although i knew i could go there, and wanted to desparately on some evenings, just to connect again. I could not. As our issues got dealt with. We climbed back up again. Our relationship reflected that. And i learnt that D/s relationships, are just like vanilla. They wax, they wain. The good one's can accomodate the flux. Now we are strong, he is strong, i am strong, i can let go again. Its only just gotten back that way, so its a new insight to me, that i only enter this place when im safe. My psyche has decided what safe is for me i guess. Im not sure if i can affect that. Or even if i should yet. little1
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