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WinsomeDefiance -> RE: I Admit It I........ (6/6/2012 8:45:55 PM)
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I admit that I interacted personally with my ex husband (technically we are still married) for the first time in 10 years. I admit that I invited his girlfriend and her son and my ex over to the house for a bbq, and we sat at the table just talking, which was very nice. I admit that it was weird to have the man I'd feard for years looking at ME with fear and sadness. I admit that I was afraid he'd smile and be his charming, charismatic self and I"d be back at day one with him. I admit that didn't happen, and I'm glad to know it. I admit it warmed my heart when his girlfriend's son said, "I am starting to think I wish YOU were MY mom." I admit that my youngest son (15 y/o) is now 1500 miles away from me, when he's never been away from me before. I admit that I spent most of the day in bed not wanting to ge up and unable to stop crying. I admit that my 21 y/o son and his fiance' are moving out and getting their own place on next Wednesday. I admit that I'm both happy for them and saddened, because I am feeling abandoned (as irrational as that is). I admit that I think maybe I'm feeling empty nest.
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