BKSir
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Joined: 4/8/2008 From: Salt Lake City, UT Status: offline
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I hate waking up shaking, and crying about the ones that I've lost over the years, especially this year. Lost my mom to cancer this summer, lost a cat I'd had since birth shortly thereafter, lost an uncle... Christmas is coming up, making me miss my mom and my grandpa even more. I'm going to miss those ugly ass, stupid, hand made ornaments that she sent me every year. I always miss his smile and laugh as he watched everyone open their gifts, although, it's still alive, I see and hear it all the time, and I've had my family stare at me and the room go dead silent, because I apparently sounded just like he did and have that same look. He never cared if all he got was the most god awful tie in the world and a bowl of porridge for christmas, his gift was seeing those around him happy. I hate that I'm the only one in the family that even remembers that and remembers him much at all this time of year and am the only one of my relatives that even keep the season alive, because I can't let him be forgotten like that. I hate that it all decides to just sneak up on me from out of nowhere and kick me in the junk. But, in a way, I'm thankful. It makes me appreciate and value the ones that I love and that love me, that are still around, even more. Love eachother. Love eachother more today than you did yesterday, and more tomorrow than you did today. Don't ever let a day go by without those around you knowing that you love them, because tomorrow may be an hour too late to say so. Hold eachother close and never let go with your heart.
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