hermione83
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Behind? ... Ah, I don't know how to be anything but blunt with this.. I asked a friend and they said post like it was a friend.. but I'm like.. um.. how would I really know this much detail about a "friend"?? So, I'm just going to ask. *Sigh* So.. um.. I like anal stimulation. A lot. Its the best. Since I was a little girl. This year, my health and everything seems to have been fragile, and weird things are happening with my body. It sucks. In any case, I'm only 24, and I have had no children, and in fact, I'm still a virgin, so I can't imagine why this would happen!! I used a plastic buttplug on myself the other day.. and it has a very short, small, part that sticks out, to grasp it by. And I'm short, and my arms are even shorter, and I cannot even finger my own ass, so inserting something into my ask is pretty difficult. All I can do is lube it up, and force it in, otherwise, it won't go in. In fact I have a jelly toy that was too soft, that I couldn't put enough pressure on to force in. It's just because of reaching. I usually lay on my side and reach over from behind and push up, but its always kind of an angle, from the side. So I put it in, and left it in quite a while, and it was hurting a lot more than normal, and I thought it was working its way out, but I was surprised to find it was still firmly in. And so I decided to yank it out. The base starts to entirely slip in, and I get scared, imagining going to the ER like this - and I freeze, paralyze my muscles and pull... it won't come out.. and I have to use my fingers to pull at it, from the side, instead of straight out, because my arms are short, as I said, and it pops out in one motion, making a loud sound. And it hurts quite bad. I thought it was because a nail grazed my flesh, as I have long nails. But I felt around my anus, with my finger tips, as that's all that will reach, and my anus feels a LOT different than I thought it did. So I contort myself to feel around as much as I can.... it feels .. like the half of my outter ring muscle, thats away from my vagina, is very extended, and lose.. like.. broken or something. It doesn't seem to close on that side, but the other side is as firm and circular as ever. I can stick my finger in, without unclenching or pushing, and feel my inner ring muscle on that side. It really doesn't seem like it's the right shape. Its like an elongated oval. I cannot go to the doctor. I have never been to the gynecologist, and I will not until after I have sex, if I ever do. Please help. I'm terrified...
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