kyraofMists -> RE: Knife play (8/22/2005 6:16:00 PM)
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For me it isn't really about the "mind fuck" nor is it all about the sensation, though I do love that. It is more about the complete freedom of letting my Lord do whatever He wants. Before I met my Lord, I was terrified of knife play and did not think I could ever trust someone enough to consent to it. Just talking about it set me on edge and made me shudder. I remember an early conversation with my Lord when we were just getting to know each other, the message from me was definitely "no way, not going to let anyone do that!" But over time trust and respect were carefully built and I surrendered myself to Him. When He decided to do knife play with me, I just melted into the table. First though, He "warmed" me up with a little fire play (another fear of mine). It made everything exquisitely sensitive. Then, as He said, He cut me just before blood. That was four months ago and I still carry the marks on my back, ass and legs (I scar very easily and get a perverse pleasure from it). I could not imagine knife play with my Lord and not being cut and I crave the day He makes me bleed. For me it is the sheer joy that I trust Him enough to put my life completely in His hands and knowing that He guards my well-being as much if not more than I do. Submitting to knife play that first time was a reflection of our relationship and the love, trust and respect that we had earned from each other. Knight's kyra Sir Warren, my Lord has already instructed me to purchase a stethescope. I think I am going to enjoy that.
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