BOUNTYHUNTER
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ORIGINAL: chellekitty i used to hate when people would tell me when i was 18, 19, 20, 21...that i was immature...i may not have a great length to look back from at 24 now, but i can honestly say that i don't think i was...but i can see what i was doing that they saw as immature...i did not have any direction in life, heck i still don't have a huge goal for "what i want to be when i grow up" but i have a lot more things ruled out then i did 6 years ago...so when i started a project and went, "oh shit, this isn't just boring, i am going to kill myself or someone else if i have to do this for the rest of my life" and stopped doing that...they saw it as immature...i see it as a learning process...knowing me, i can't read a description in a book and know that that "thing" whatever it is, isn't for me, i have to do it...and that is true in all areas of my life...unfortunately, i got labled a flake for a long time, still do on ocassion (take my current enrollement in school, i can do it, i'd be excellent at it, it's so fucking boring and tedious and i can't do other people's "art"...so i am "flaking out again"...or deciding it's not for me, because i didn't know that until i got imersed in it...and no one will help me find another way to imerse myself in it than to take classes in it, and i want to shred the useless books already anywho) i don't know if this particullarly is the case for anyone else on here...but if everyone else is looking at me and seeing a duck because i walk like a duck and talk like a duck...maybe i should take a look in a mirror cause i'm pretty sure "they" aren't conspiring to get me...err not get me... chelle For a duck you are ok in my book chelle smile...
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