stella41b
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Joined: 10/16/2007 From: SW London (UK) Status: offline
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I hate the fact that I've gone into total emotional shutdown... I missed the post-production party for the play because nobody told me about it, and besides I had stuff to clean up and pack away after the performance.. the venue looked so bare after the set had been cleared away... I feel like a ghost.. have gone 4 days now (I think) without a conversation, text, phone call, mail message, someone isn't returning my calls and messages, and I have little choice but to move on and wonder what might have been.. or go through the doubt of never knowing if you're getting through.. but this depression, anxiety and isolation is getting more comfortable now, and the chances are if I don't pay too much attention I will somehow manage to sleep it off by the weekend.
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