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Kalista07 -> RE: I hate it when........ (9/17/2008 8:40:37 PM)
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Hey guys...... Well, much against my initial plans we went to the psych hospital. The guy who came to assess me, was very nice and kind of funny... He laughed when i told Him that not only am i a recovering alcoholic but also am in charge of a treatment center...But he was nice, it was a laugh of understanding not a mocking one. He said that 'of course' i'm still going through withdrawal. And laughed when i told him that made no logical sense to me because i haven't taken any medication in the last three days. He told me i 'should' know better, and appeared very confused when i told Him i understand it may work that way for everyone else. Then He asked how i deal with my problems, and i told him i am one of the most open and honest people he will meet, and share everything freely at will..... (heh) To which, i must say that i think 'HIS' Domly side wanted to take some action there. tee hee hee...So, the guy said, Oh let me guess, that's another Jennism? Which became his code word for things from then on out.
He said in addition to the withdrawal, i'm going through a lot of stress with the accident (i haven't been able to drive since). He asked if it was a serious one and i said no "HE" said, 'uhm...Yeah, actually the cops said she was pretty lucky to walk away alive'.
So, then he just told me i needed to learn to talk about some of the stress i'm under {filing bankruptcy, not having a vehicle, being unable to drive currently, huge ass budget cuts at work, not being able to see the wee one's in forever, increased case load and work expectations at work, decrease staff, decrease money, no real friends here, no life, etc}
My boss also called a few times. She talked to Him when i was doing the assesment, i called her back and she called me back and spoke to me. She said she's unwilling to accept my resignation, that they love me, she will help me find ways to delegate some of the stress, etc, and that i can take as much time off as i need.
Incidently the man from the place explained to me that my bones aching and my weakness is part of the withdrawal. Which makes more sense now, because yesterday i tried to do my walk to fitness video and couldn't make it through one whole mile.
i'll be forever grateful for all of Your support, encouragement, kindness, and love. i don't know how i ever got lucky enough to have so many people care about me, but You all are truly special to me. i am very sorry i worried you.
i'm grateful to be home, to have stopped sobbing, and to know i'm not going to do anything stupid tonight,
Kali
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