Gwynvyd
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ORIGINAL: Gwynvyd Why I keep being silly and holding my problems back from Father I have no idea. *smiles* Gwyn we are WOMEN! we solve the problems of the world, our own problems are little and to be handled by ourselves, not to disturb the higher Powers, because compared to world peace and the little old lady who lives on the streets, it's nothing... pfffft, what's a few tears here and there... i keep thinking giving my griefs and problems and pains to the Big Man (or woman or whatever concept of higher power) sometimes feels like I can't handle life, and that makes me a lesser woman. it's pride (at least on my part) and stubborness. what's that phrase? grief or problems shared halve them, joys shared double them... (sorry if this sounds disjointed, i blame it on the krispy kreme overdose - it's been a year at least since i last had one!) Ok.. That is just not cool... you envoke the Krispy Kreme name... and I have none.. thats just cruel and unusal punishment for a preggo like me... ya big ol meanie. *chuckles* Yeah I am supposed to be superwoman... able to do and know everything for not only myself.. but every one else around me... My problems matter so little... and darn it I should be able to handle them all on my own riiiight? Um.. nope.. I am realizing I am not all that and a bag of chips.. with a soda on the side. I need help and comfort dang it. I love that I am strong enough to admit that. ~ yeah it is a bit of pridefulness.. ( My largest of the 7 I have to contend with) but mainly I also didnt feel worthy of bugging Father about lil ol me. Silly I know... But it is how I felt. *hugs* I love it when I am finaly able to order some things to make my life as a new beach ball easier at work. ( and get a refill on my prenatal vitamins - has it already been 2 months since I began taking them? Yikes! ) I love it when I resolve to stay in Florida.. say fuck it.. and take life as it comes to me one day at a time with my head up. I love it that my Um amazes his teacher every day... and that she is a *nice* lady.. and communicates with me by E-mail at work every day. ( Anagrams rock!) I also love that I am enrolling in school again for my AA in Psychology. I had gotten off track when I moved from Naples.. and was enroling with Hodges..when I moved that got pushed aside, but I am going to give it a go now. They have all online courses.. so even with the wee bairn.. it will be feasiable. I love it that I am happier now.. and things arent so bleak. Gwyn
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Self avowed Geek-Girl~ Come for the boobs, stay for the brains. Be the kinda woman that when your feet hit the floor in the morning the Devil says "Oh shit, shes awake..." ~ Softandshy's "Shiney"
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