Daddysredhead
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Joined: 11/6/2005 From: Northern (yet still part of the South) Virginia Status: offline
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I love it when I decide that I'm going to take care of me, however that means. I'm tired of working 10 hour days, being the mom, the daughter, the decision maker, the shoulder, the whatever... I'm just overwhelmed by the enormity of crappy stuff happening to people. I've decided that, since I cannot make it less crappy, I'm not going to let it worry me. I'll still be a friend, but I'm just not getting wrapped around the axle for stuff that isn't mine to "own" or change. Sort of like the Serenity Prayer. I love it when I stop taking calls from one of my oldest and dearest friends because she takes me on a roller-coaster ride with her marital woes. For the past year, she has talked about being verbally and emotionally abused and controlled in ways that most folks wouldn't appreciate. I have given her help, found her an attorney, and so much more. She's still there, with him, after another friend of hers gave her a rental condo to live in, free of charge when she leaves home. I totally understand the cycle of abuse, have worked with shelters, etc. for a long time, as well as lived it myself. There comes a time when enough is enough as a friend. I'm done. I am tired of all the whining and wasted time and energy that is spent when there are alternatives to the shit storm life serves all of us at one point or another. I think I'm just ready for some fun calls or emails. I'm over all the drama that many people create for themselves. I love my girlie, but I'm unhitching myself from the wagon of her bs. I try to have a pleasant, mostly happy existence, and I just can't be bothered with the mopey, over-dramatic crap anymore. I love that while making Thing 1's next dr. appt yesterday, I looked at the office gal who knows that I sometimes take no prisoners, and said loud enough for most of the people in the waiting room who were having a "contest" to see who's life sucked ass worse, "Damn, I hope to [Gary] you keep this glass window shut most of the time. Listening to this amount of 'my life is worse than yours' would make me grab a gun... I'd either have to kill myself or hand it to one of them." She was taken off guard and started laughing in a way that sounded like a whoopee cushion being sat on. Thing 1 laughed, too. The waiting room people didn't even get it. I suppose ignorance really is bliss. Signed, Red, of the evil Amazonian Bitch-Slap Brigade (ps - thank you to a couple of the ladies on here who talked to me yesterday and reminded me that just because my phone rings, I don't have to answer it... *smooches*... you know who you are) I love and adore all my CM friends and I hope that those who are in a bad place right now will have the strength and courage to do the next right thing to improve your situation. All I can offer is *hugs*, but they're full of love.
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Founding Member, Clan of the Scarlet O'Hair-a's Do not challenge me to a battle of wits & come to fight unarmed. Are you really that stupid? ~ Bless your heart 13th doughnut
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