daddysliloneds
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i feel horrible that he's always the one to do the traveling, which is not only time consuming, but costly, and to top it all off, he has to dish out money for a hotel, which is also costly, even though he and i knew prior to meeting that this would be the way it would have to be for a few years... in turn, he feels bad because i feel horrible which is the last thing he wants me feel... sooooooo, to make myself feel better, i try to pick up the tab here and there when we go out, which he tries to graciously accept at times, even though it goes completely against his nature, as he feels that it's his place to pay(somewhat like a traditonal 50's household), and because i have way less luxury money to work with than he does, as well as the fact that he just happens to think i'm worth it! so it's a challenge for me to stop allowing myself to feel horrible and trying to make myself feel better, as well as a challenge and a compromise on both of our parts; because we each know, it's only because we care so much about each other, that allows us to feel this way at all. of course, that holds true for any relationship that's long distance, d/s or not. so i suppose in the d/s context ,my main challenge is as a masochist; trying to hold myself together and not explode on the world, in-between visits and beatings as for him, he's an easy going guy who i don't think feels any challenge at all ; he knows without a shadow of a doubt that i'm as trustworthy as the days are long, that i will always speak my mind, no bars held, and that i adore him!
< Message edited by daddysliloneds -- 6/30/2008 8:02:12 PM >
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