AAkasha
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Relevant background - I'm self employed and the breadwinner in the family, my husband is a stay-at-home submissive who handles all the domestic responsibilities and also is my personal "everything" - errand boy, shopper, planner, secretary, sex-on-a-whim, you name it - most importantly, he is extremely proactive and I expect this at all times, meaning he's always kind of a step ahead of me making sure I have everything I need.... The other day I was ranting and in a horrible mood because I keep planning a very quick, much needed vacation which consists of getting away for 3 days max, mid-week, and being self employed means that if a client has an issue, I can't turn off the phone and blackberry, I pretty much am on call. I want desperately to 100% get away just for a few days right now, and in my conscience I know I can't if I see a potential crisis coming up that will require me to drop everything. It's slow enough that I have days I know I can disappear, but it's impossible to know which days. Such is life. Anyway, I was venting to my husband about this when we had to cancel a trip - again - and he pointed out to me, when I was saying, "I just need a vacation, for three days, a REAL vacation where I don't have to worry about anything" -- that he NEVER gets a vacation. Ironically, when we're on 'vacation' he works twice as hard, because on top of his usual attentive self, he's working extra hard to make sure I REALLY relax - so he's hustling all the time, between getting me drinks, offering massages, planning surprises, etc. Of course, he *enjoys* it, but the point is still there - he never gets to "shut it all off" because that means I'm not getting what I need. It made me wonder if I should give him time off - real time off - where he doesn't have to take care of me or worry about me. He says no, he doesn't need it, but I have to imagine that the mental state of mind of always being "on" can get exhausting. Or is this just the normal state of mind for some people? Submissives, do you ever feel like you just need to stop serving - even for a bit? Akasha
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