leadership527
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ORIGINAL: sweetgirlserves Seems from what you've posted in this thread and another one recently, you are always on the look out, concerned that your 'dom' might be 'fucking up'. *blinks* Uh... huh? Where did this come from? Here, let's not talk about Des's dom since that's third party heresay. Let's talk about me. Damn straight I am worried that I am going to "fuck up" as you put it. And with good reason too... I just did recently and it was a doozie. Actually, now that I think of it, I just did TWICE and they were both whoppers. And let's not discuss the myriad of smaller mistakes I make on a daily basis. For me, at least, the goal in this relationship type is not to prop up my weak ego with artificial accolades. I lost any illusions that I was perfect some time ago. Nor is it to be all super-domly since I barely even identify with BDSM or "the lifestyle". Plain and simple I'm trying to make the best marriage that I can for my wife and I. And I personally do not find that an easy task. Without going into detail, let's just say that I passed the mensa test easily. And even so, I'm more than happy to have another hundred plus IQ points helping me out from Carol's court. And then there's the various bits and pieces of help I get from places like this. Now, getting beyond the basics of just plain managing a marriage comes the intimate level of control I exert over Carol. Maybe other dominants find this easy, but when you start messing with someone's artistic endeavors, their social circles, their living conditions, you name it, I find it WAY easy to make errors. When I sent in my application form for my MasterCard, they didn't send me the ESP pills so I'm perennially working with insufficient information in highly complex situations. And since I couldn't give a rats ass about whether I was right or not, only whether what we ended up doing is the best thing, I'm more than happy to have any input, guidance, or smacking upside the head that Carol might provide me. Amazingly, I manage to suffer all these slights to my domly dignity with my ego intact. Carol does, in fact, keep me from "fucking up" ALL the time. Yes, I am very very grateful for that. Maybe that really eats into my dom street cred. I might just've lost 100 board warrior points here. But you know, as a consolation prize, I have a 15 year long relationship and while you can label it however you want, it's making Carol & I very very happy.
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~Jeff I didn't so much "enslave" Carol as I did "enlove" her. - Me I want a joyous, loving, respectful relationship where the male is in charge and deserves to be. - DavanKael
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