Phoenixpower
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I admit I am enjoying being at home at present.
I admit the fact that dad is away during the day plays a major part on that fact 
I admit he already used yesterday evening straight away to try to piss me off with him tryinng to attack my weight (which regularly makes me laugh as he has a bit too much weight for way longer than I do, so he seems to be wearing wrong glasses when he doesn't get that fact  ) not to mention that I will never let his attitude impact my weight. I lost well in the past when I wanted and will do so when the situation is right....however, his bullying attempts in that matter fall on deaf ears....
I admit he also tried to tell me that I would not need my painkiller meds if I would not have too much weight at present, following which I called him up about his bullshit as I have my fibromyalgia pain since childhood, even when I was slim in those days....so whilst it worsened, that has to do with the lack of ability to just "relax" about many things at present as well as my lack of rest until last year december and not about his ignorant view in regards to the weight
I admit I am glad for my nephew that my brother isn't like that as my brother once talked to me about it when I had gained too much weight years ago and approached me in a great way with mentioning that I used to be slimmer than him (we both were skinny kids as we did lots of sports during the weeks and ate healthy foods in general) which is true as I remember days where he passed on some of his jeans to me as he could not wear them anymore whereas I could 
I admit my dad also tried to tell me that he won't accept my cats in his house temporarily, following which my mum said (once he was in bed) that he can forget about that attitude as we won't leave them behind, nor does she wants me to remain overseas.
I admit thats now her battle to clarify...
I admit I nevertheless started to contact petsitters nearby in case they are needed in case of emergency with my dad.
I admit I wouldn't be able to afford it for more than a month, if it would be necessary and know that mum would not want me to waste money down that drain....but I would do so, if I would have to.
I admit dad later said that I would be allowed to move in upstairs (seperate flat), following which I asked myself (and told mum once he was in bed) "does he actually listen to his own words? Wtf would I want to move in when he claims my cats wouldn't be allowed there" *duh*
I admit, in general I would not want to live in their house longterm, thats just out of question for me for many reasons.
I admit its always a joy of being at home with dads attitude...which is why in general I do prefer to be further away.
I admit, on the plus side, it seems I would be able to buy my parents touran in two years time as they want to buy a different car once my dad receives his life insurance
I admit I would love that, as it is a gorgeous car
I admit further that I would already have a gorgeous bed,sofa and incredible gorgeous cupboard for my next flat as that had to be left behind from my parents previous tenant due to lack of space....and she has incredible good taste
I admit I would also get grandmas wardrobe, which I discovered in parents cellar, as my brother used to use that one but now hasn't got the space for it...so I would have to find a place where that one fits in, thats for sure
I admit I also found an old bible in my bedroom which granny received as a kid...it was printed in 1929, exactly the year where granny was born.
I admit it is a shame that whilst it is stated in there to be for granny, it does not say who gave it to her...so mum and I can only assume that she received it for her holy communion when she was 8 or 9.
I admit that this bible will move in my keep sake box reg. granny as it is at least a little version to replace a children bible from her which I can't find anymore...though I do still hope to find that one one day in one of our boxes in the loft...
I admit mum also gave me 2 of grannys rings, though one of them needs to be made tighter, whereas the other one is boarderline status and can just be left when I use it on the middle finger.
I admit I am glad to drive to the hotel tomorrow, near the interview on tuesday, to be able to relax that I don't have to keep shutting away more crap from dad.
I admit before I am going there my hair will end up shoulder length or chin length...as they are a real mess, unfortunately 
< Message edited by Phoenixpower -- 5/8/2011 5:39:16 AM >
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