Daddysredhead
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Joined: 11/6/2005 From: Northern (yet still part of the South) Virginia Status: offline
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ORIGINAL: kiarsia I admit I've been doing a lot of reading lately. I admit I've been admitting a lot lately. In my actual day-to-day life I mean. I've been owning up to a lot feelings and things I've repressed and felt guilty for feeling for a very long time. I admit I'm having to make a conscious effort to be assertive and forthright, without being attacking or abusive. I admit this whole "communication" thing is very hard. I admit it would be very easy to go back to being "accepting" of pain and unhappiness in the name of avoiding conflict. I admit that I can identify with this so very much, pony. I admit that learning to speak up, and be my own best advocate has been a chore, and I'm still in the process of perfecting it, but it has been worthwhile so far. I admit that I understand how easy it is to slip back into old patterns because it's what we know and it's "comfortable" and easier in some ways. I admit that I ask myself the main question from my paid friend group often: "What am I willing to experience or do in order to reach my goal? If that means I have to do what seems unnatural to me, am I willing to experience that feeling in order to get to a better place?" I admit that the answer has been "yes" more often than not lately, and it has made my world a much nicer place to inhabit. I admit that I wish for you, the same journey... to get to the place where you realize that YOU MATTER, and that you are loved, just because there is no one else in the world quite like you. *hugs*
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