subkarih
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I admit that after for days of not being able to sleep, today i overslept and didn't wake up until 4:30! Fortunately, Master was not mad and got out of getter in good time. I admit that last month, 14 months after my son's death, his widow announced she is remarrying. While i would not begrudge her any happiness and lord knows she deserves it i was sad because it was yet another reminder of the loss of him and my grandson. I admit when i said that to Master he yelled and accused me of hanging on to them and being upset because she was getting married and i cried and that just made it worse and we just stopped talking and now i do not show any grief at all around him. I admit i still grieve, but just because i mention it does not mean i am hanging onto them and not moving on. Hell, i am making good progress according to grief professionals.... I admit i guess thus is just another aspect of life we handle differently. I admit it was really REALLY hard not to be catty and mention it when he cried about his father who had been dead for almost 20 years. I admit i just needed to get that out.
< Message edited by subkarih -- 9/21/2012 4:19:26 AM >
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